Men,
Seeking advice on how to save this.
Known her since childhood. Our fathers in business together. Our families were close. First love, lost virginity together, everything simple and good. Then our fathers fought. She left easily and coldly as if it had all meant nothing. Heart fucking torn to shreds.
Discover red pill in my anger phase, hate all women for a while, go back and forth between improving myself and wallowing in depression. End up fucking around 70 women over the next two years, unable to have feelings for any of them.
Reconnected with first girl after two years, regularly hate-fuck her. Offered a relationship in a vulnerable moment. She refused, scared of her family's disapproval of me. Still wanted to fuck me on the sly.
Stupidly got her pregnant on purpose with intent to abandon her for revenge. When she did get pregnant I knew I couldn't and decided I would take care of her for the rest of her life if the child was mine. Told her I wanted nothing to do with her pregnancy or baby until I could see a positive paternity test. Cut contact during the pregnancy. She claimed she hadn’t been with anyone else. Paternity tests are not common here and are associated with trashy people on tv shows. Me withdrawing my emotional and financial investment in her until she got one was a huge blow to her and her family, painting her like being a low class whore. Her family furious at both her and me, she had no real support during the pregnancy or the childbirth. Birth was hard 30 hours and she was alone except for medical staff. Claims the experience changed and traumatized her. When she called to tell me the baby was born, coldly told her I would get involved when the paternity test was done.
Paternity test positive. Moved her into my house. Being a good father. My love for her and our son runs deep. She is an excellent and loving mother. I provide her with stability and a stay at home mom life. Made her life relatively easy and comfortable. We get along. We have good sex. But she is extremely stoic like a man. Bitterness runs beneath the surface. The dread during the pregnancy and birth affected her too much. Hair falling out, way too much weight loss, hollow eyes, not eating or sleeping much, not taking care of herself. The way other women yell and cry and let their feelings out would be a thousand times better than this lingering tension and mistrust.
Fear she’ll leave again, maybe with the child. She’s afraid I’ll do it first. Her family hates me. Were very close to me when I was a kid. Might turn her against me.
How to act? How much alpha attraction, how much compassion/comfort?
Wishing to restore what’s broken, innocence and trust we used to have.
To answer my own question: Will try going 80% alpha strength and 20% beta comfort. Just a guess. Know women more likely to stay with bad man they respect than nice man they don't. Have hunch it would be good to bring on this kind of yelling and crying emotional way that most women act when they are upset. It is cathartic for women to let that out, no? It is better than her putting on a front and bottling up her stress and wasting away, no? Asking other men for more suitable advice. Would not bother posting if I could figure it out on my own. I want to love her. Are women not diabolical if men must hold back the fullness of our love in order to earn their respect?
throwaway415 1 1d ago
ive never been in this situation so it's hard for me to give you advice. you might want to check out marriedredpill. her leaving again is a very real and statistically significant possibility. mentally and financially prepare for a very difficult road ahead. realistically, you are never going to "restore" the innocence and trust you used to have. Things will never go back to the way they were before. We can't turn back time. all you can do at this point is try to make the best of a bad situation and mitigate as much of the damage as possible.
seems like a bad situation all around but you already acknowledged that you fucked up by getting her pregnant so I'm not going to beat a dead horse here and remind you of this. i just hope other guys learn from this and don't repeat the same mistake
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Musicgoon78 3 19h ago
I'm going to give my two cents right here. This is from my own personal experience and talking to many guys like you.
Focus on your kid. You're officially stuck in a trap of dread and obligation for the next 18 years. It's not your job to fix her, it's your job to raise your kid right and to fix yourself.
My ex hated my family, my family hates her and my brothers baby momma and a few girlfriends were in the same boat. The tension will eventually rise to the surface. It will start to get very fucking old. You know and she knows that you're lying to each other and yourselves about the stability of the relationship.
Some magical ratio of alpha and beta is bullshit. You're putting a fresh coat of paint on a dog turd and pretending like it's something else.
I'm going to give you a path. Probably the married red pill will as well. Be ready, they are much more harsh than I am. First thing is to stop trying to fix her. The more energy and time you put into bettering your relationship is like flushing that effort down the toilet. You focus on her and you're going to push her further away.
You made her comfortable. Too comfortable. If she's well provided for she's going to get bored. When she has nothing better to do, she will sit there and stew about you and your flaws. Don't expect her to find gratitude in your generosity. Sounds like she's just going through the motions right now. I think from what you said that you're definitely seeing something underneath the surface of her emotional state.
Your time and energy should be on raising your kid properly, enjoying your life and improving yourself both physically and mentally.
Go out and find things that are fun for you to do and fun things you can do with your kid. If your girl does not want to come along so be it. If she does want to come along, cool. The whole point is to not put your life on hold because she is unhappy. At the end of the day not everybody's going to like you or agree with you. That goes for anyone in life. It's just a fact that nobody is everyone's cup of tea. That's perfectly okay.
The last thing I would do is a bit of research to find out what your legal rights as a father are in your state or area. Have a contingency plan in case she tries to pull some bullshit. Most women will. I'm just speaking from experience. The hardest thing to do is to is to try to keep a broken family together. You're better off putting your efforts into having a good life instead of a fake one.
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Musicgoon78 3 12h ago
Marrying her is one of the worst ideas you can have for your future and your relationship. Don't do it. The reasoning for marriage is the wrong reason.
Fear doesn't inspire attraction brother. Living a good life full of fun, laughter, happiness and success is.
I can't stress this enough: if you want a miserable broken home filled with heartache and custody battles that will break your kid, then by all means, put your baby momma first. Focus on the relationship and her needs.
If you want a shot at success in your relationship you have to put yourself first. It sounds counterintuitive, but you feeling sorry for yourself and doing everything for her is really an asshole move. You're not giving her what she needs and not showing your kid strength.
Your lawyer aqua intense is full of shit. You don't need to be married to have rights as a father. Getting married ensures that you get fucked over so badly when she leaves that you'll want to suck a shotgun.
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Durek_The_Bald 18h ago
Which adds up to 100% autism.
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Musicgoon78 3 10h ago
Great wrong?? For asking for proof of paternity!!??
You've got it all kinds of fucked up! You've been taking care of her. Why don't you offer to slice off one of your balls with a butter knife as a sacrifice to this goddess... Give me a break.
I've told you that salvaging it will take working on yourself.
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First-light 2 15h ago
When you hurt women like this, it is very hard to get them back. The hurt is very deeply ingrained. Women have small lives. They have faint hearts. Childbirth is a huge thing for them and when its hard it really does traumatise them, when they feel you abandoned them they never forget and will remind you at all the worst moments.
You have a young family. Its not necessarily lost yet. She still needs you. You will have other children and you can be more of a source of strength for her then.
Now fix it with her family. Family is important to her. You may even be wrong about the way she left coldly. There is no way to do a dirty job but to just do it. She dumped you because her family told her to but she still came back to bang you secretly. Perhaps she did retain feelings for you. Perhaps, she just managed to bury them. In real LTRs not what most people on her mean by LTR -bang her for a year or more- but actually relationships that lead to family, what you do is far more important than what you say. She came back to you when her family hated the idea. You hate fucked her, knocked her up, called her a whore and left her on her own at a time of great fear and hormonal turmoil. Now do something positive. Apologise to her. tell her you are going to make it right with her family. Start with a public apology to them, try to heal the breach. This will mean a lot to her.
Forget all that alpha beta shit. Be supportive. You don't have to do this in a beta way but actually be the support she needs when she needs it. Its not about buying her stuff or doing house hold chores or anything its about the big moments when she is actually weak.
Do not underestimate the vulnerability of women. I have done so to my cost more than once.
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