Men,

Seeking advice on how to save this.

Known her since childhood. Our fathers in business together. Our families were close. First love, lost virginity together, everything simple and good. Then our fathers fought. She left easily and coldly as if it had all meant nothing. Heart fucking torn to shreds.

Discover red pill in my anger phase, hate all women for a while, go back and forth between improving myself and wallowing in depression. End up fucking around 70 women over the next two years, unable to have feelings for any of them. 

Reconnected with first girl after two years, regularly hate-fuck her. Offered a relationship in a vulnerable moment. She refused, scared of her family's disapproval of me. Still wanted to fuck me on the sly.

Stupidly got her pregnant on purpose with intent to abandon her for revenge. When she did get pregnant I knew I couldn't and decided I would take care of her for the rest of her life if the child was mine. Told her I wanted nothing to do with her pregnancy or baby until I could see a positive paternity test. Cut contact during the pregnancy. She claimed she hadn’t been with anyone else. Paternity tests are not common here and are associated with trashy people on tv shows. Me withdrawing my emotional and financial investment in her until she got one was a huge blow to her and her family, painting her like being a low class whore. Her family furious at both her and me, she had no real support during the pregnancy or the childbirth. Birth was hard 30 hours and she was alone except for medical staff. Claims the experience changed and traumatized her. When she called to tell me the baby was born, coldly told her I would get involved when the paternity test was done.

Paternity test positive. Moved her into my house. Being a good father. My love for her and our son runs deep. She is an excellent and loving mother. I provide her with stability and a stay at home mom life. Made her life relatively easy and comfortable. We get along. We have good sex. But she is extremely stoic like a man. Bitterness runs beneath the surface. The dread during the pregnancy and birth affected her too much. Hair falling out, way too much weight loss, hollow eyes, not eating or sleeping much, not taking care of herself. The way other women yell and cry and let their feelings out would be a thousand times better than this lingering tension and mistrust.

Fear she’ll leave again, maybe with the child. She’s afraid I’ll do it first. Her family hates me. Were very close to me when I was a kid. Might turn her against me.

How to act? How much alpha attraction, how much compassion/comfort?

Wishing to restore what’s broken, innocence and trust we used to have.

To answer my own question: Will try going 80% alpha strength and 20% beta comfort. Just a guess. Know women more likely to stay with bad man they respect than nice man they don't. Have hunch it would be good to bring on this kind of yelling and crying emotional way that most women act when they are upset. It is cathartic for women to let that out, no? It is better than her putting on a front and bottling up her stress and wasting away, no? Asking other men for more suitable advice. Would not bother posting if I could figure it out on my own. I want to love her. Are women not diabolical if men must hold back the fullness of our love in order to earn their respect?