So, previously I’d be okay fucking mid girls if they were easy, because at least I’d be having sex.

Now I only wanna fuck specific girls. Like, I matched with a girl today who was decent enough, and before recently I’d have 100% smashed. But now, I feel like that level would be disrespectful to myself.

Is this normal?

On one hand I feel a bit ashamed of having a dry spell currently, but on the other hand I feel like breaking the dry spell with a girl that is less attractive than some of the other girls I’ve fucked would just be a bit weak and desperate. I’m not saying the next girl has to be more attractive than every girl I’ve been with, but there’s a group of girls that I fucked that I was kind of wanting to fuck, vs girls I’ve fucked out of boredom and then didn’t really wanna see again because I wasn’t that into them.

I also met a girl a while ago who was only here for the weekend (I didn’t have sex with her), but she’s coming back in January and wanted me to meet her. She’s cute but a bit chubby. Not fat by any means, but it’s just meh. I don’t know if I will follow through with this.

Is this a new level of self respect, or have I become a homosexual from drinking too much tap water?