Wellbutrin is a fine choice, steady and lightly speedy. Almost like a constant slight buzz, I see it as a life enhancer more than anything else. Useful for ADHD, addiction, depression etc, Only one I've tried that didn't make me lethargic as hell. Got back to my fighting weight after I gained a lot on lexapro.

Loads of people will tell you antidepressants take away your edge, this is the only one that doesn't for me. I feel sharper, there is a reason it is used for ADHD treatment. I can see the argument for "drugs r bad", but if it keeps you off of worse stuff like booze and smokes I'd say it is worth it.

Your long term goal should be to actually learn how your emotions work and how to take control over them, even for the simple reason they you're not going to be taking Prozac for 10 years and not have side effects, both physical and mental.

At least before you hop on the literal magic pill try a herb called "melissa officinalis", this has been used for hundreds of years and proven to have effect of "smoothing" emotional states.

, however, I lead by emotion and not logic,

Go watch a few "mother dog disciplines her puppies" or something to that effect. You haven't learned how to stop the runaway emotions (the more emotional you are the more emotional you become). This is a behaviour that can be learned, all humans can learn this, this is evident by 8bn people not needing Prozac.

despite being fully aware…

Being fully aware of the problem is nice for starters but it's not a fix in itself. Fatties are aware they are fat, gamblers are aware they are gambling. You get the idea.

My girl got on Wellbutrin. The side effects are mild and it's been shown to increase libido I steady of stunt it. She wasn't horny because of depression so it definitely helped us.

My depression is because of epilepsy. So I don't take any more pills. I already have a pill salad for breakfast.

As mentioned, my goal is to heavily suppress and plausibly turn off my emotionally driven side

You don't even mention which disorder you have. This is grossly irresponsible. I have college education on this and don't even have it in me to answer an irresponsible question like this.

Prozac

Prozac is so bad. Don't even bother. Can't speak to Wellbutrin which does other things in the brain but again, you don't even say which disorder(s) you have, making this an irresponsible post to comment on in relation to medications

So you identified a problem (you make poor decisions while emotional) and want to solve it (numbing your emotions chemically through drugs)

I'm thinking about taking 2 cylinders out of my car because I keep on getting pulled over by the cops for going 120 mph. Is this a good idea?

There are people who medication helps temporarily because the alternative ends up with them snorting meth or hanging themselves. Your problem does not match the proposed solution unless you left out details about the kid you have because you can't stop nutting in BPD chicks.

My read on this is you would be better off reading about CBT and mindfulness. By doing this, you can build the muscle of acknowledging your emotions without being controlled by them.

We're all human bro and have emotions. Even the most logical person makes an emotionally charged decision once in a while. Changing the chemical composition of your brain seems like overkill. The self actualized man feels the full spectrum of emotions. Learn how to make logical decisions even while emotional. It's possible.

I would suggest to keep searching for a good therapist/psychiatrist. From your descriptions, it seems that you may have quite a few years of therapy ahead of you, and medication might indeed be helpful.

You'll have to somehow fight your paranoia against the therapist/psychiatrist. It's inevitable that it will show up, so that'll be a problem. It doesn't help that many of them are blue pilled schmucks. But keep trying. Together with the other stuff you've managed, there is hope ahead.

I would stay away from chemical lobotomies if I were you brother.

Find a hobby you like and stop worrying about things you can't change.

1) most drugs' side effects are worse than whatever problem they're ostensibly treating

2) Most of these drugs ends up named in those 1-800-BAD-DRUG commercials within a few years of their introduction.

I'd try to stay away as much as possible. Most doctors are over-educated, glorified drug pushers, and just hand out harmful chemicals as if they were candy.

Idk about you, but in uni, all my friends did pharma made speed(amphetamines) aka Adderall, vyvanse, dexamphetamine and Ritalin(not quite as strong as former amphetamines).

It made us(group of 3-4 people) so focused and driven we literally studied a whole semesters work in a day on the first week in a 20 hour study binge marathon. We split the sections up so each session in 20 hours we'd have 60 hours of notes. We do another session like this the following week, and we learnt everything in two weeks and aced all our exams. We'd spend 40 hours studying over 2 weeks in library, then spent rest of our semester partying and mucking around.

You just go to psychiatrist and say you got AdHD and they will prescribe you it.

Have you seen the movie Focus? The movie is about a pill drug that makes you almost superhuman in terms of productivity and mental clarity.

Well, pharma made amphetamines is the closest thing to that. It's just pricey and annoying trying to book a psychiatrist. You must get a specialist to open you the script.

Only downside is you can become dependent on the drug to be productive at all.

That's a risk you have to be willing to take. Also you will lose many hours of sleep and have shortened life expectancy due to the strain amphetamines does to your central nerves system and heart if you become dependant.

But we are all adults here capable of making our own decisions so I'll put this info out there since no one else has.

Pretty much, this drug is the reason how I am so far ahead of my generation. I'm probs gonna die in my 60s, but my life is epic thanks to this drug

So there's some science behind this but you need to nail down your specific condition. There are genetic tests available. ADHD is treated with methamphetamines. Depression is interrupted, but not treated by SSRIs like Prozac(fluoxetine). Schizophrenia is treated by anti-psychotics.

Wellbutrin(Bupropion) is actually for treating bipolar personality disorders(cyclothymia) and blocks the nicotinic receptors to help smokers quit. And then we get to the personality disorders...

Narcissism, which it sounds like you have if you think you have "eons more knowledge" than multiple therapists, is considered untreatable. The core belief is one of insecurity that leads to a lifetime of delusional thinking. No amount of medication can fix this. Just a lot of honest therapy, which no narcissist will do because they know more than anybody anywhere ever because they're perfect and everyone else is a loser.