LDR is not a relationship....... you are an option for a future relationship. They don't work.

How do I break myself out of this self-sabotaging loop? I've been stuck in a depressive loop before (unrelated to women back then) but I can totally see this episode spiralling/devolving into something like that, what can I do to address or pre empt it?

Find LOCAL girls

LDR

Bruh ..........

I almost wanted to stop reading after this. Have you learned almost NOTHING from TRP?

This is your first time fucking a chick PIV

Jesus fuck you have newbitis that's your entire problem

Stop being exclusive with this women wtf dude. She probably has dick on top wherever tf she lives and you're sitting here mentally masturbating and probably literally masturbating over it

Jesus man, have some self respect and find a woman you can bang on the reg. Not this shit. LDRs are imaginary relationships, you're slacking on RP.

Not sure if lovesick or developing oneitis.

Wtf is lovesick.

legitimately one of the happiest times I've experienced in a while.

Sounds awesome

Learned a bunch of stuff from the LDR girl in the past week

Nothing wrong with this. As always, be mindful of the dynamic. Even with good intentions, women will unconsciously chip away at boundaries and change the frame of your relationship if you are always passive.

Leading, being assertive and capable of saying no, having fun and shifting between treating her seriously and treating her like a bratty little sister; all these things are important to the dynamic long run.

So now I feel sad because LDR has flown back

LDRs suck. For a number of reasons. For long amounts of time you dont fuck, she cant do things for you, she’ll still want your attention, you dont know what she’s up to, etc. There’s no real abundance and the LDR will usually become a net negative over time.

In your case as a young dude with little experience i dont see the big issue with it. What you need to do, is to not stop learning, keep flirting with other women, keep improving your SMV so you’re always in a good spot and pussy is no longer something that can control you.

How do I break myself out of this self-sabotaging loop?

What self sabotaging episode are you talking about exactly? Most of your post sounds like you’ve had a good time.

my ex was worsening my anxiety issues)).

I caught some type of cold (or maybe dust allergy?)

Just judging from some of these inputs that dont really matter to anyone but you, you sound like you have something of a woe is me attitude. This is typical for someone with anxiety and depression, but you have to understand that these things go hand in hand.

Catch yourself when you start thinking about negative shit, and make the conscious decision to just stop it. Think of something good instead. Think of your wins, and future wins. This will literally improve your thought patterns, and over time, along with exposure to whatever you’re anxious about, will reduce your anxiety.

I stopped reading at LDR.

There. I said it @vermillon-rx

It sounds like you have had a very positive experience. Catching cold from a lover who lives far away is pretty likely as you will both be exposed to very different viruses. Its perfectly natural that you will experience a come down after a period of intense positive emotion and excitement. It will be very unlikely even in a very stable person and if you are someone who experienced anxiety as you described, then it is likely you have more ups and downs than the average person.

Overall I would see it all in context as a big plus and see the come down as being as normal as the come down after a big athletic event, final exams, or even a big work project. Its totally natural.

Its also totally natural that you miss you lady. She made you feel good. Its again just a case of seeing it all in context. LDRs are not easy to manage in perspective. They require greater than average tenacity to sustain -you get less rewards for more waiting. They are also a lot less secure -its easy for both ends of a LDR to be tempted to stray or to abandon the LDR as futile.

So see it all in perspective and use the quiet time to mull over what can be done about the LDR. Is it serious? would it be a serious LTR if you were closer? If so, its worth considering how you can close the gap -who could move? If its not a realistic LTR prospect or neither person would be prepared to move, then its important to see it only as a bit of happiness that will not endure but is best enjoyed without regret.

It is possible to bring a LDR to being a proper close relationship but it demands great commitment and sacrifice on both sides. It is also almost always best to do this sooner not later. The longer you leave it, the staler your love becomes and the freshness of new love is a great help when facing the big sacrifices that are needed to bring a LDR into a real LTR.

Use the quiet to mull, see things in perspective and make whatever plans may be necessary. Try very hard to see her as what she is. Is she likely to be faithful, could you really get on with her and so on. Only you can do this.

There's an evolutionary explanation here. Your body thinks it has reproduced and will now form an attachment to the female. This will alter your brain to become territorial, protective, and jealous. The more contact you have, the more it will be reinforced.

The solution is to not become attached. Attachment leads to loss. Loss leads to suffering. Suffering to anger. Anger to hate.

LDR translates to "Saving myself for when I'm dead."