I think that anyone would kill himself way before maybe years ago if he was in my position.I dont want to go into details because my life would be a complete tragedy book and would make me even more depressed. I am 23 ,nearly 24 never even kissed a girl,holded hands. Through primary school I was bullied by some girls and some guys.I mean I was always the biggest one so noone could physically attack me but I was bullied mentaly. I was nerd and introvert,my perents were some kind of weirdos introverts as well.Father worked all day and just cared about money,to make as much as possible to be rich,to buy as many houses as possible.He didnt have any social life,friends in his 30s and 40s,and me and mother would only see him in the evening when he gets home from work.Then he would sleep for 4-5 hours an go to work immediatly early in the morning.He always talked how it is needed to work and that we dont work enough.He only cared about his business and nothing else. Mother Mother was also never social,when she would return from job she would spend time doing house jobs in home. In that type of envorment where my parebts lived that type of life and didnt encourage me to get out of the house and spend time with people but to study and have the best grades isnt weird that I grew up into someone that gets bullied for having no friends. Being also fat made some impact on being rejected by my best female friend at 13,watching a girl that I had such a big crush on kmake out infron of me with her 6'3 boyfriend.
In highschool I tried being complete oppsoite of what I was,I was super angry and bitter ,didnt want to be friend with any girl but if she would come to talk to me frist,look at me ans smile,touching me ,I would become sexually agressive i initing sex and calling them home.I was rejected and they would reject me and bully me mentally for 4 years there and have sex with other guys. They were brutal,smelled my weak points and tortured me mentally the only way a female can play with someones feelings.They would act intrested and than turn me down and run from me. It fucked me up mentally. In uni there is small amount of girls and they are not intrested in me,there are so many tall well build guys that they cant even notice me,I finisged growth at 5'10 two inches velow average height almost. On tinder I swipe for months without likes and matches,although I lost weight,have abs and muscles,expensive fashinable clothes.
My fneale cousin is fucking manipulative bitch. She told me that she would bring her female friend and that I can hang out with them. Now I realized that she doesnt give a fuck about me,she bringed her on just so her mother and father wouldnt bother me because my house is empty currently.She closed with her in my room while I was in living room and told me that they have to talk and that we will toghether watch movies. I eavesdropped them and herd that they are flirting with omegle guys.I learned that they are fucking a new guy every day. I was schocked because her friend seemed like a such nice girl infront of me.If i didnt spyied to them I would never find out what kind of sluts they are. I was jealous when I realized how kany parties and friend she has and how many choices of guys she has.They were grossed by dicks btw and talked only to normal guys. She lied,she never called me for the movies or to hang with them,when it was late they got from the house to their home. I felt like a such shit sitting there alone in the other room like a loser,while they are having fun. This is not the first case she is laying and manipulating with me whole life.I am an idiot,she can tell you something,promise you something just for the sake of her own interest. I was such an idiot for opening myself to my cousin,my fears ,doubts ,and all of what I have told you.I suspect that she is even telling that to her parents and that she doesnt keep my secrets safe. All that insecurity camed from constant rejection and failures.I used to be more social,talkative,charismatic and funny.Now I look so insecure and I cant fake it anymore,its impossible I need sucess,many sucesses. Everything would be easier if I could make friends and start going out with them every day and stopped spending all day in the house at least then I would have some chance as riny as it is. But how do you make social circle at this point,when my social skills suck. Also that negative expiriences made me get into myself even more and avoid people and bonding as a result of constant rejection,bullying and failed trust and promises.
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Bulba 1y ago
You didn’t read the whole thing, he’s already muscular and has six pack abs.
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coolsocks00 1 1y ago
Ive given you tons of advice already. Have you read No More Mr. Nice Guy? Listened to Rian Stone's series on When I Say No I Feel Guilty? Listened through the Book of Pook? Have you put this stuff into practice, how? Have you been getting out of the house and done cold approaches?
Give me solid yeses to these and i might read your sob story post.
AllBlack087 1y ago
I read half of the book.Good recomodation,I find myself a lot in it.I have just listened a little of book of pook podcast and playing with fire.I will finished it all.
mattyanon Admin 1y ago
Ok
You need to start small, meet people, learn to be friendly, to chat to strangers, and to make friends.
It takes time and you HAVE TO PRACTICE.
You can't just "do it". You have to push through the pain, get out there, meet people and fucking TRY.
Vermillion-Rx Admin 1y ago
I read the whole thing, but likewise have tried addressing your mentality in previous posts.
Are yiu actually going out, approaching women, and putting your face to the grindstone by taking risks and accepting failure? Or are you mentally masturbating without going out and putting in the work?
Further, if you lift and look good, you're destroying yourself on your tinder profile then. You can't look good on tinder and not be somewhat successful unless you're shooting yourself in the dick via either poorly taken or poorly posed for photos or a bad bio
What are you actually doing with our advice? I just about never see a post from you describing attempting to pick up a girl etc, it's near virtually only about your thoughts. Take risks and actually try and then make a post asking for feedback on talking to a girl
AllBlack087 1y ago
You made a good point,I have a sense that I am doing alot but when I understand it better its just mental mastrubation. Talking with 2-3 girls a year and looking for intrest singals isnt a lot.I am rarely in shapr,usually get out and get fat and while I am in shape I dont go out.I rarely go out and never had a courage to approach a girl,but girls dont approach me and I heard that they approach guys.I dont see them looking at me and smiling when I walk down the street though when I walked today in tbe park with friend this night I have seen one looking at me with smile. I was just once late in the night in the bar it was 00 a.m and one girl way taller than me was looking at me woith smile and fuck eyes ,she holded gaze on me but I was too scared to make a move and just looked away and pretended nothing happened.
Vermillion-Rx Admin 1y ago
This is exactly the issue. You used to post super black pill stuff but if I'm to illustrate the progress you've made in reference to your username, you could change your username from allblack to AllInAction (all inaction)
You need to at least try dude. You can't sit at home inside your head and expect women to show up at your doorstep. That's serious inaction under the guise of progress and improvement
A lot of us are talking to 5+ girls a night when we go out. If you're averaging 2-3 a year you're not doing shit.
You need to just force yourself to go out and don't let yourself go home until you've tried to talk to 2-3 girls in a night.
If the venue sucks, go talk to another 2-3 girls at a different venue
whytehorse2021 1y ago
Incest is best, put your sister to the test. Start there and then fuck your cousin and then their friends. It may seem taboo but it's not. If your mom's not fat fuck her too. It's just common sense anymore.
AllBlack087 1y ago
Fat women are attractive if they are fat on the right places.Of course not 100+ pounds overweight but like 50.Curvy fat women are way more attracitve than skinny girls.
whytehorse2021 1y ago
Yeah "normal" women are 20% body fat. Lots of that fat goes into boobs. I like chicks that are so skinny you can feel their spine ribbing your cock while you fuck them. The only hazard is you can interfere with their central nervous system and then they pee all over you.
Beers4cheers 1y ago
Suddenly, a lot of things I've seen referenced on the Internet make sense.
whytehorse2021 1y ago
I had to see it in real life long before the internet had it.
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whytehorse2021 1y ago
What? Am I the only guy around here that fucked his sister?
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whytehorse2021 1y ago
I wish I was. It was more like she fucked me :( I think I was like 12 and she was 16. Not exactly consensual.
Terra 1y ago
I want some of that man. Most importantly I want sister.
Note to OP. Learn to talk this kind of bullshit its freeing, then calibrate. Pulling chicks is talking a lot of nonsense mixed with sense.
Just don't do it around a house and most peers. Dont relate to.anything punishable or anything that can lead you to station. Calibrate.
Read Brad P forbidden truth
@AllBlack087