So, I've been trying to improve myself daily for over 6 months now. It's going decent but there are a lot of lows. I never had many problems with girls but I am way too awkward in social conversations. I am trying to get out of my comfort zone and trying to talk with strangers on daily basis. I've been hitting the gym daily for 1 year now although not much progression but I love it at the gym.
However, I just feel like I am unable to believe that I am going to be successful. I am from a not-so-rich country and from a not-so-rich family. And I know that my making it up the ladder of finance is low but I don't know why I am just unable to do productive things for a prolonged period.
I use YouTube for more than 3 hours and it's fucked up. I have tried so many apps and stuff but I just can't get over it.
I have a toxic family and don't have any friends in the area I live and the school freinds I had, I fought with all of them and now they just see me as someone who they have to despise. I don't really care about having friends though, I have changed like 4 schools. Friends never stay, so why tf should I worry about them.
I just want to better myself but I am unable to reach my full potential. I know if I can just get on the rhythm I will be able to do everything but don't know how.
I'll appreciate your input on this post, anything works as it will give me a much wider perspective.
p.s: the post is long because it's outta my chest. I never have a deep conversation about myself with anyone as I like to keep my problems and stuff to myself but I guess I can share it anonymously on the internet.
MrSupreme 1y ago
Try reading some of the sidebar books, "No more Mr.Nice guy" is a nice start
xaxixh 1y ago
No More Mr Nice Guy by Robert A. Glover?
MrSupreme 1y ago
That one,it's short,concise and very enlightening, can probably find it on PDF
xaxixh 1y ago
Read it. The book literally has my name written all over it. Thank you!
mattyanon Admin 1y ago
More info needed: what are you trying to do in life, and how are you trying to do it?
xaxixh 1y ago
I'm 18, so rn I am just trying to be financially independent and move out of my parents house asap.
mattyanon Admin 1y ago
Ok, so basically you need money.
What's your job and what's your ambitions?
xaxixh 1y ago
I don't have any job right now. I had one but I quit it because I was stupid and in 'love' with someone. As of now, I have my final exams for 12th grade upcoming. These are really important since they are going to be the decider of - if I am going to be accepted into a good college or not.
I don't have BIG ambitions, I just don't want money to be a problem in my life. After these exams, I am going to be doing content writing and freelancing to earn money while I learn a programming language. And then the goal is to land a good job at it and move to another country to get a better quality of life.
The plan seems simple and if I do it correctly I know I will be alright but then again nothing goes as planned. I hope I don't end up like a loser and have ask my parents for money everytime.
mattyanon Admin 1y ago
Do your absolute fucking best at these exams, this will pay off throughout your life.
good plan. programming worked well for me.
then work hard and excel at it.
xaxixh 1y ago
Thank you! I will try my best.
whytehorse2021 1y ago
My life changed dramatically when I left the shit-hole city I was born in and the shitty family/friends I was born into. Just leave. Sell all your shit, quit your shitty job, ditch your shitty apartment, and leave.
xaxixh 1y ago
Exactly what I am trying to do and I know it is the only right thing. I don't see any growth of myself with my parents anymore. I love my parents but I got a life of my own. It's just going a bit rough since I am procrastinating a lot.
Tell me more about your story. How did you manage to get an apartment on your own and what advice would you give your then self.
whytehorse2021 1y ago
My story is very long and spans multiple continents and islands. You might consider joining the military and getting an MOS that is an actual trade like HVAC, plumbing, etc. If you're too young you can do JROTC and get a pay bump when you enlist. Work on your credit and savings while enlisted. Get a 4 year degree for free with the GI bill and get a VA loan for a house. Once you have your degree you can go see the world as an English teacher and have sex with all kinds of exotic women while a renter is paying off your mortgage. After 20 years of cumming in random hot women on islands and in jungles you can probably retire by selling your house and running wheels on S&P 500.