I've probably read all the TRP material ever made and I know this is the most incel blue-pilled shit ever but I need a place to get this off my chest and get help.

I'm 20yo, I feel like Im going crazy with this shitty hair. I dont want to take finasteride. Minoxidil gave me sides. Currently microneedling and using keto shampoo but they dont work. Hair transplant is too expensive and looking at my father I'd need to transplant a whole head of hair, just not feasible. Im not gonna take non-FDA approved shit like RU 58841,

I was model-worthy when I still had hair, now I look like shit. I've been struggling with this all my teenage years because I've been balding since I started puberty, but lately it has become way too stressful. I've shaved my head like 5-6 times already but I always want to grow my hair back. When I search on google about "role models" they're always 30+ years old and most often they look pretty bad bald anyway. Truth be told Its not like I was a chick magnet with hair, but that was because I just wasnt trying. Girls looked at me all the time and stuff happened like going into a club and making out with an HB8.5 girl instantly without me doing anything. Now the absolute desert.

Why am I writing this? Im about to shave my hair again. I want opinions if I really look like shit or Im just going crazy. Im starting University ( Computer Science ) in 1 month and I want to get my brain sorted out.

Album: https://imgur.com/a/lUiw3Xv Me at 17yo: https://i.imgur.com/JITjDTK.jpeg Me right now: https://i.imgur.com/YAF787w.jpeg Me right now top view harsh lightning: https://i.imgur.com/wdrvirR.jpeg Me bald: https://i.imgur.com/NHJkOw2.jpeg

TL:DR: Going bald, idk what to do. Was handsome before, now I look like shit. Should I shave?