Highschool is the best years of your life, until you turn 25, then college was the best years of your life, until you turn 30. And so forth.

Highschool literally means jack shit when you get older. Swallow that. The kids are just that, kids. The girls are dumb and most will become fat, lesbian or pregnant within the few years following graduation. Your friends (mostly) will start to go in their own direction. Most will either get married too early to some ungrateful broad, have kids or worse, both. The other half will still remain closed to home, trying to capture and relive the "glory" days.

You're young. Jesus Christ you're young. Don't sweat this shit. Embrace the fact that you found TRP at this age, instead of down the road where more damage could be done in comparison to your highschool "reputation".

You're in a good place. Stay focused on yourself and what you want in life. Each year that you get older, you'll slowly start to see that nobody really gives a fuck about you or what you did 20, 30, 40 years ago. Things come into perspective. Your 20s will be the best times, take advantage of that knowing you're not even there yet.

Highschool isn't so amazing with everybody hooking up like you see in movies. Many many guys just coast threw it, work hard, have a part time job, and don't get much pussy(that was me in highschool).

Pussy isn't such a big deal, at your age you might think its the end all be all of existence it really isn't. Once you have fucked a few dozen times, or even the same girl 2 or 3 times it won't give you the same high anymore.

There are phases of being unplugged, you are so young so its not surprising you are still in the Anger phase, things will get better when you accept girls for the way they are and just focus on what they can provide you with that you enjoy.

The only way to get out of the anger phase though is to approach girls with true outcome independence and have some success then you will truly internalize the IDGAF attitude. Pretending to IDGAF when really each rejection really stings is painful until you get better at it.

I am not a strong proponent of randomly do 100 approaches till one works, getting rejected 100 times isn't going to do wonders for your self esteem.

Instead I would say study hard, and find activities that you enjoy doing, if you meet girls in those activities than you have something in common and you can ask them out.

You should be asking yourself constantly, "If it weren't for her holes would I really give a shit about this girl?" if the answer is No and I bet most girls it will be No then you can flirt, tease, and you really will have a IDGAF attitude. Learn to reject girls in your head, if she isn't responding the way you like just walk away and ignore her. She isn't giving you the attention you deserve therefore not worth your time. Doesn't matter how hot she is, not worth your time if she is acting like a spoiled princess to you.

General advice:

• Release. Write down everything that is bothering you, even if no one reads it.
• Gratitude. Think about ways in which you are fortunate. I, for one, wish I had TRP knowledge in high school, so you're way ahead of me. Keeping a gratitude journal might help. Maybe even do some volunteer work (this will help with university applications too).
• Perspective. Right now high school is your entire world. It's a speck compared to what's out there in the world which is itself a speck in the universe...take a look at Carl Sagan's "pale blue dot" quote. It sucks right now because you're trapped but you'll be out soon. If you can find activities outside of school, that would help, or even new crowds/activities at school.
• Self-improvement. If people dislike you or are avoiding you at school, keep a low profile and go monk-mode and just work on yourself. Get off of social media and start doing stuff in the real world. Start thinking about what you want your future to look like and start planning.
• Money. Get a part-time job somewhere. That'll get you into a new environment and you'll be learning about responsibility. Then start saving and investing your money. Money is important in life and learning to manage it early will put you ahead of others and also give you something else interesting to think about.
• Escape. When you finish high school, make sure you end up somewhere where you are on your own and you're far away from home. This will be the final nail in the coffin for your "PTSD" environment.

You have the symptoms of CPTSD, (Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder), which is caused by childhood trauma and narcissistic abuse by parents or those close to you. It is not a mental or personality disorder, but you have trained to hate yourself and have unhealthy levels of self perfectionism. The nightmares are flashbacks from past childhood trauma that is stuck in your unconsciousness. CPTSD is a "computer virus" that affects the way you see yourself and the world. You can heal from it.

What is CTPSD? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZXVAxO_FToA

High school sucks man, apart from losing my v card and getting my first gf, it sucked major ass. Keep trudging through, most of the jocks you see will only have the best years of their lives there. After that, they either turn to drugs and drop out( majority of “jocks” I knew) or knock some girl up and have to work full time hating their lives. Keep improving yourself and fight it out. College is way better imo.

Sounds like cPTSD, you have to write these thoughts out and expel them slowly from your brain until it becomes a distant memory

I was omega, not even beta. I wasn't in the game because of how naive I was and trauma from the past.

Life is what you make of it.

Went through the same thing. Use this as fuel to propel yourself into a sea of pussy and success. Hold on boy.

Be glad you are swallowing it now rather than living a BP life of regret. I didn't swallow the RP till I turned 24. I'm 27 now and still to this day I get daydreamy about my BP past, cringy behavior, and outright doing bad with girls that showed a ton of interest in me back then. It's a haunting reminder of what not to be.

And although you know your place in the school has been a chode and that's how people see you, you can recover. Keep reading. Lift. Do game.

If we could all go back in time and be our RP selves, there would be no BP left in this world. But there's no use worrying. Go forward and up.

As a personal antecdote, some girls that saw me at my chodiest of days absolutely fell in love with the new me. Granted it was nearly a decade later, but now all those HS sluts meaning jackshit to me and I'm glad I spent my days doing well in school than wasting away at parties drinking and smoking weed like most of them.