21 years old, 2nd year of college, somewhat regularly get approached by girls who tell me i'm good looking, mostly in bars and clubs

got asked out once by a girl I have never even spoken to before, get catcalled sometimes, people I meet randomly make positive comments about my appearance. still a handholdless virgin

Am I cursed or something? Is getting bitches something your father is supposed to teach you? I have never been more suicidal. Before I know it i'll be a 25 year old boomer. The last 2 - 3 years can be excused by covid. But now i'm in college and I go out somewhat often, i'm not a shut-in NEET like I used to be. It's not like i'm mentally retarded. I'm just shy and kinda awkward. Why is this limiting me so much? I hate my life.