I've been meaning to sound off on this for ages now! I am a man with both severe ADHD and Aspergers Syndrome, which have made my life a living hell on Earth!
In all of my years, I've always had to go the extra mile to achieve ANYTHING that I want in my life. I've had to go above and beyond, more so than any neurotypical could. By comparison, their lives are a cakewalk. With severe ADHD comes a delay in brain maturation, which causes me as a 27 year old man to have the maturity level of a 16-17 year old, although sometimes I can act 19-21 years old.
I get distracted easily and sometimes I can be lazy due to my ADHD, my Aspergers causes me to be more introverted and I cannot detect body language worth a shit. Eye contact is nigh impossible with people and in social situations, I do not understand social cues and moores. Still, the fact remains is that throughout my life, when I've tried to overcome these disabilities despite being unmedicated, I've always have had to go the EXTRA mile when it comes to getting what I want or need in life.
For me, I wanted to live in my home state of California for a good decade or more after being in Texas and Florida for so long. Was I able to achieve that? NOPE! Because it got too expensive and I could only last there for half a year and the prices continue to go up!
I had to settle for being in Florida for a longer period of time.
I also wanted to get into the video game industry and be a graphic designer or a story boarder or better yet, a narrative designer for video games. Was I able to achieve that? Not at all, so I had to settle for trying to get into the Comic Book industry to be a writer and even THEN, I couldn't achieve that, especially since the Comic Industry has become so damn politicized!
Hell, what I want is one thing, but what I need is another. I can't even get what I need! I need emotional support, some therapy maybe? I need to friends and I need love as well! I've always had to settle for meditating and just being lonely all day.
That said, the ONLY things that I want/need now would be friends and a family of my own someday. But how can I attain that now?
I wish to have a social circle of friends, those who are Christian, Conservative, Traditional like me and at the same time, people who can understand me and my struggles and not be so quick to judge or write me off. People who be loyal and will have my back instead of ghosting me. I miss the days when friends were actual friends and not just people who'd like to have some small talk and ditch you at their own convenience.
Most importantly, I wish to have a relationship that will lead to marriage. To be with a woman who's traditional, Christian and is also really, physically attractive. Someone who's down to Earth and genuine, who isn't so materialistic and superficial like the other gals that I've come across. Since I tend to associate most social media, particularly Instagram and TikTok with anti-traditionalism and vanity, I'd imagine a traditional woman wouldn't be on either of those, but by all means if anyone cares to retort this and prove me wrong via an example, I'm open to hearing it.
Right now, I live in Eastern Europe and while I'm not struggling anywhere NEAR as much as I did in America, I am still struggling nonetheless. I came here to improve my social life as well as my dating life because my time in America was a colossal failure. Honestly, FUCK! FUCK! FUCK AMERICA and WESTERN EUROPE and their unrealistic standards/expectations for people!
I'm tired of settling for less. Can I not just get those two things that I truly desire? Hell, can I not be a writer and just have ONE of my books published by Simon & Shuster Am I destined to be alone forever and live this boring, meaningless bum life? God, I hope that is not my destiny.
mattyanon Admin 2y ago
This is a very difficult job to get. 99% of the games industry is programmers and artists, being a story boarder/narrative designer doesn't even exist for many games. Designing games is harder than storyboarding because they are so intereactive.
More importantly: what steps did you take to try and achieve this?
Why the fuck do you want to be married? Marriage is now nothing more than a one sided providership contract. There is ZERO benefit to you as a man to being married. All you're doing is promising her money in exchange for leaving you. Your dreams of happy marriage are based on your grandparents or movies, neither of which applies to the modern world.
Marriage FUCKING SUCKS. Get over it, there is no retirement from the sexual marketplace.
hahaha./.... virgin too?
You want hot girls then fine......... but traditional women DO NOT EXIST. They pretend to exist, but don't. If you want to meet women like that, go to church - but they are not going to be traditional. That ark sailed with your parents' generation.
The reason that the other girls do not meet your unicorn ideal is because THERE ARE NO UNICORNS. Where did this idea even come from that such women even exist? They don't, get over it.
The things you want are hard to attain for anyone. Not impossible, but hard. So don't be surprised it's not easy.
You spoiled fucking brat....... listen to yourself..... why should YOU be published when millions of other writers are not? Life is a competition buddy, get competing and never stop. Never give up. Never whine. And learn to accept the world as it is, rather than as you wish it would be.
LIfe is what you make it. You don't have to be alone unless you set yourself crazy and unrealistic goals based on things that don't exist.
OffWorldEterna 2y ago
Finally replying to you after days of being too busy IRL.
"This is a very difficult job to get. 99% of the games industry is programmers and artists, being a story boarder/narrative designer doesn't even exist for many games. Designing games is harder than storyboarding because they are so interactive."
Yea, I tried the programming route in the beginning and it didn't work. I wanted to be the one to make the game and write the story for it. But I sucked at math and as such, the whole designing and programming route was blocked.
"More importantly: what steps did you take to try and achieve this?"
During my time as a teenager, I didn't do much to achieve it. I had been addicted to consoles back in the day. As an adult, I've been Writing stories, drawing and submitting each and every one of them to publications.
"Why the fuck do you want to be married? Marriage is now nothing more than a one sided providership contract. There is ZERO benefit to you as a man to being married. All you're doing is promising her money in exchange for leaving you. Your dreams of happy marriage are based on your grandparents or movies, neither of which applies to the modern world.
Marriage FUCKING SUCKS. Get over it, there is no retirement from the sexual marketplace."
I'm a Traditionalist and a Christian. So, that's why I wish to get married. I don't have that nihilistic outlook on marriage and relationships.
"hahaha./.... virgin too?"
Yes
"You want hot girls then fine......... but traditional women DO NOT EXIST. They pretend to exist, but don't. If you want to meet women like that, go to church"
So, I can meet a hot girl who's Christian? Cool
"- but they are not going to be traditional. That ark sailed with your parents' generation."
Or I can venture abroad and meet a woman who's traditional. The Anglosphere is cucked.
"The reason that the other girls do not meet your unicorn ideal is because THERE ARE NO UNICORNS. Where did this idea even come from that such women even exist? They don't, get over it."
Because my Great Grandmothers were such women. And I met three women in my generation (Millennials) who came really close to matching that description.
"The things you want are hard to attain for anyone. Not impossible, but hard. So don't be surprised it's not easy."
Most things in life are hard to attain. But you talk as if I chose the hardest path in life.
"You spoiled fucking brat"
Excuse me? I who had to work harder than most people in my age group, chasing people's tails in disgrace, forced to play catch up due to always being behind my peers because of my Autism and ADHD? I am a spoiled brat because I've been wanting to prove my self worth my entire life after having all the rich snobs living near me shove their success and prowess in front of my face, making me feel like shit and for years, been wanting to sock it to them at last? Wow!
"....... listen to yourself..... why should YOU be published when millions of other writers are not?"
Because I'm much more creative and imaginative than most people. I have a gifted creative mind that guaranteed could blow these other people and their works out of the water. I'll show these people who's boss!
"Life is a competition buddy, get competing and never stop. Never give up. Never whine. And learn to accept the world as it is, rather than as you wish it would be."
Damn right! Life, no, existence as a whole is a competition to whoever gets there first. I won't ever give up. I'll get what I desire before it slips from my grasp.
"Life is what you make it. You don't have to be alone unless you set yourself crazy and unrealistic goals based on things that don't exist."
All of my goals are realistic. I just need to apply myself more and actually do the work to get it. Now I realize how much I dropped the ball and what I need to do to get what I both want and need in life.
mattyanon Admin 2y ago
Nope. Your ancestors were women - they PORTRAYED themselves as good girls, but 10% of the population doesn't know who their real father is. Women cheat, always have. Women responded to the times, portrayed themselves as ideals, but life has moved on. Those days are gone.
No, not for that reason.
Because you think you are entitled to a job that almost doesn't exist and a marriage that definitely doesn't.
We would ALL like to sit around all day designing games and married to a hot loving wife, but only you think you're entitled to it.
Awesome! If you're this good, it will be easy for you. Fucking do it.
PHALLUS 2y ago
Like the chick in he Batman movie said, "Suffering builds character." And i would add, it's up to you what kinds of character you build with your suffering.
Imagine the worst possible outcome your life could have, would you trade for being a woman, any woman any time in history? My answer is always no.
OffWorldEterna 2y ago
True. I must continue to persevere.
You bring forth an interesting premise. What kinds of character I build with my suffering will be key in the future.
PHALLUS 2y ago
Do you keep a diary?
OffWorldEterna 2y ago
Nah, I usually just keep these thoughts bottled up in my head.
It'd probably be best for me to write down these thoughts though.
whoami_root 2y ago
Hey man, I read through your post and I can identify with you. I think you're still in the "rage" part of redpill. What you have to realize is that you've been fed bluepill ideas all your life and the frustration you're feeling is how real life is not aligning with what you were taught. You even mentioned in your post that you have the maturity of a 16-17 year old. That's the age where you're still supposed to believe in these "Disney fantasy" blue pill-esque ideals.
You'll find that once you accept that the life you were promised as a young boy is NOT going to play out the way you've been promised/fed/led to believe, it gets better - I promise. Instead of getting frustrated that you can't ever have your tradcon wife that will love you forever, you start learning and appreciating women for who they are and what they are - toppings to your ice cream but they aren't the ice cream, you are. Meaning, build a life that you want that makes you happy and stop putting so much stock in women. Casually date women and in your state, I would recommend that you DO NOT COMMIT TO ANY WOMEN until you've plated women for at least 2-3 years. You NEED to get experience dealing with women before you even think about marriage because I can promise you that if you marry a women in your current emotional state, she'll eventually leave you. The reason the phrase AWALT (all women are like that) exists because REGARDLESS of country, the TRP principles apply. Don't think just because you're in a traditional country that those women are immune - they're just better at suppressing it.
Instead of getting frustrated at Western/European women's standards, look at it as a challenge to make yourself better. Not to get women, but to lead a more fulfilling life. Lift weights, pick up hobbies, and work toward financial independence like hell. Like I said, I identify with your story. I used to be a scrawny kid who spent my days simping, but once I started getting more muscle, money, status, and a idgaf attitude toward women, my results with women did a complete 180. You'll find because once you get all those things, not very many men around you have those same things which makes you desirable to many women and the 80/20 rule will start to work in your favor (80% of women spend their time chasing the top 20% of men) and you can look back at this post in a year or two and have pride in your growth.
Hope this helps.
OffWorldEterna 2y ago
Forgive me for responding to your post days late. I've been really busy with my move into my new pad in Poland.
I thank you so much for enlightening me with this information. I've always been the one to never think that I am owed anything, including a woman. Rather, I'm bent on bettering myself to achieve my goals. It's as Richard Cooper says, "Do. The. Work." and he couldn't be more clear with that one.
It's a good thing that my fellow Red Pill brothers are here to look after me and give me the best advice. Speaking of the dating scene along with the 80/20 rule via hypergamy, I have a follow up post about this regarding my situation here in Poland and it's definitely one you outta check out.
I can't thank you enough for the advice you've given. :)
whytehorse2021 2y ago
I can relate as I have autism too with executive dysfunction as a bonus. I wrote a book called "The Social Autist" to teach autistic people how to become experts in all things social. It's basically red pill for autistic people and is based on evolutionary psychology similar to "The Rational Male". Here it is on Amazon https://www.amazon.com/Social-Autist-Autists-Allocentric-Universe/dp/B09HN2V6P6
I'm also building a youtube channel for autistic people which has stuff not in the book or things I want to elaborate on. https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCa24bbLL2NdqGin7cpPmIEA
As for your comic books, just do what I did and self-publish on Amazon. There is a huge opportunity to create red pill content and autistic content. You can do animations if you want and set up a youtube channel and self-publish. The only other channel I know of doing this is that Cap'n save a hoe show. There's also a trillion dollar industry fixing broken people like you and I and all the simps and feminists.
OffWorldEterna 2y ago
Yo! Just got around to your reply and I have now subbed to your channel.
And yea, I'll probably do some self-publishing soon. All of your suggestions are excellent. :)
whytehorse2021 2y ago
Yeah another thing that occurred to me is the RSAnimate type stuff. Like you could take some speaker and put an animation to it. Bonus if it's red pill stuff like Rollo or Rian Stone.
OffWorldEterna 2y ago
Nice! I'll check out the RSAnimate to see what it's like