Thank you to all the dudes who help other guys out here and the ECs who give up their time to give advice to us who dont listen 80% of the time. I was going nowhere, hopelessly in love, suicidal, raging alcoholic. Trying to bury my pain every night just so I didnt have to feel my heart breaking over a beautiful girl who played me. Heres a long pussyass story how y'all kept me going through personal Hell.

I stumbled onto the Red Pill through youtube and i think.. A discussion/video game site called Gamefaqs. I truly understand why its called the red pill now. After you start to take it (im still struggling) you never see the world the same way again. I had always noticed these things like hypergamy, alphas and betas, holding frame because I am a natural zeta type. I dont respect the pecking order and I dont feel inferior to women. Idgaf about alphas, betas, or plates. But as a human, RP makes sense to me. Im still a pussy romantic at heart, so fucking multiple women is only somewhat appealing to me. Honestly it sounds stressful, because I always form bonds with women i fuck and it makes us act crazy.

The love of my life (haha) tried to call the cops on me, falsely accused me of rape when i stole her pills so she couldnt commit suicide, had her mom babysit her kids so she could go downtown and fuck strangers. Hit me, stole my drugs, blamed her ex for everything, made me want to die because she didnt love me enough. When I met her I had 2 jobs, a house, friends, and was 170 pounds squatting 315 for low reps. Fast forward 3 years and I just got out of jail for a year and a half, im homeless, and on my own because I refuse to live with my parents. Me and my dignity sleep in my car.

But the RP truths were my lifeline. Just like cognitive principles and restructuring (ive been to rehab) my ex hit the wall and got fat. I realized she wasnt mine, it was just my turn. Paul Elam(?) An Ear For Men taught me how marriage and children can be a trap that tie you to vicious women. My first gf was my unicorn who was endlessly loyal, fucked me constantly, and always had my back.. Because i was an asshole to her. She just facetimed me out of the blue the other day after 10 years and shes married with 2 kids. I alpha widowed her, naturally and entirely by coincidence, before I had any idea what that was.

Even though im homeless and a felon, i feel great. I already have two jobs again, i work my butt off and am making friends, i joined a gym and hit leg day so hard i can barely walk. I eat at a homeless shelter to save money and because.. It applies to me. I dont do meth like many homeless do so thats a bonus. I dont even drink during my work week because im on probation. But i feel so grateful and happy to be alive and because my world finally makes sense to me. I saw the ex not long ago, she got pregnant with another mans baby while i was in jail. She had already called the cops on him and was ready to start hitting him for child support. And i was just so happy it wasnt me!! Lol thank God, lord knows I fucked her milfass unprotected enough times. RP men please realize you are doing great work. I dont believe in everything because I still make friends with girls and im in monk mode so i dont really care about fucking atm. But you guys saved my life and im proud of your community. Fuck this quarantine.

Tldr; Red Pill is real and it taught me how to respect myself. RP and prison I should say, prison was where I learned RESPECT. Dad was a drunk, destroyed by mom sadly. All advice and comments, criticism welcome. I wasnt sure if I should post this on asktrp, but I wanted to more make a huge THANK YOU thread rather than ask for help. I know what im doing now, living my own life. But i still need help sometimes. Thanks RP