Not an important post, but it's something I've been noticing only lately and it has me confused - not complaining though. I wondered if you guys might have any insight on what the fuck is happening here.

So basically, I spent the last 3 years in isolation/monk mode after a major breakup that honestly traumatised me - my own fault though for not walking away sooner, but that's besides the point.

In those 3 years, any time I went outside; whether it was just to go shopping, for a gig or social event, I noticed women no longer paid any attention to me. I might have got the rare look here or there, but it was very rare and I know this because I was always paying attention to whether girls looked, I think because I was starved of it during the time. To add to that, I was always good at spotting choosing signals prior to the isolation because I was consistently sexually active for years - so I knew if a woman wanted me without ever having to speak to them. I kind of lost that skill through my time alone, and with low self esteem.

Anyway, fast forward to the last month or so. I started seeing a girl around mid-August, it was an intense and passionate situationship that burned out almost as quickly as it began. The fact that I handled her so well in the beginning was a shock to me after being stagnant for so long - the girl was obsessed initially. I made a couple of posts here on how that shit show ended up, but the key takeaways are: 1. I finally got out of my drought, and 2. My original self esteem and ego were restored, and I realised I was still the man, but still needed to work on some things. I am a rusty katana basically.

That situationship ended roughly 3 weeks ago and I've been a sad, introspective sack of shit ever since.

Here's the thing though... Everywhere I go lately, girls are showing me choosing signals. Today for example, I only popped over to the shop and I had about 7 different girls eye fuck me throughout.

It's been like this for the past few weeks wherever I go. People have even been making comments on my appearance, my "sexiness" etc, but when I look in the mirror at myself, I don't see any difference to who I was in those 3 years alone. The only real differences I can think of is that I have been working out more regularly, but I'm not dressing to impress at all lately - I am still in a state of grief and depressed after what happened recently. So I don't get it. I'm not imagining things either, I am being checked out by most girls everywhere I go lately, and I want to take advantage of it but I feel low.

Anyone know what the fuck is going on? It's not like I've had a sudden change in energy, or like I'm suddenly oozing confidence again. I feel like shit lol.

Answer to my own question: I don't really know, but if I were to guess? Maybe working out has made my face slightly more attractive, but honestly it looks the same to me. Another idea could be that now I've shaken off the rust of the 3 year drought, I'm carrying myself with more ease and less underlying desperation? But I haven't been laid in like 4 weeks, so the rust is on its way back.