I got her number, I texted her a date suggestion, she replied double text with a smalltalk question... Now I fucked up the texting in the past so many times that I try to not text by any means, so I told her straight up that I dont text and suggested a phone call instead. She replied no and goodbye.

I try to chalk it up as doged a bullet and that its fine if she cant handle the not-texting but its bothering me big time. Im now again depressed to a point that this will affect me for the coming weeks, so that Im in no state to approach anyone. There is so much negative shit and worries my brain is spitting out right now, its unreal. This is obviously no way to do things.

Id like to get to the point where failure does not bother me and I can approach constantly. The whole thing with women is full of contractdictions and catch 22s, I cant find a reliable way of dealing with it.