Just literally turned 36 and I get a sum total of zero bitches currently. The last time I had a woman was approximately 2 years ago. I don't remember precisely.

I don't complain about it in real life to anyone. I just carry on with my day to day grind and goals, and pursue what fulfils me. Generally, I'm content and not a miserable dude. Frame is pretty good considering.

Prior to this though, I was getting a hell of a lot of pussy (allow me to have one flex in this shit post) - like way more than your average dude. I'm only like 5'9 too. Slim athletic build. Not bulky. Not a rich dude by any means either. Just some poor short king who's really good at drumming. I had cute, fat assed little baddies on tap. I must have been in a flow state for like 10 years - Red Pill helped immeasurably.

Nowadays though: nothing. I kinda gave up trying so much because of this dry spell. As I said, I just switched focus to honing who I am and what I love to do. But I'd be lying if I said I'm not lonely as fuck. Most of the time I'm cool with it, but there are nights where I reminisce on times past, and think about the future and I miss all the fun, excitement and adventure... And I do miss the comfort of a good woman and a relationship as well.

But those 2 years have put a nice dent in my confidence. I see girls looking my way all the time when I'm out and about, I see opportunities like I once did, but the difference is that I don't have the confidence to pull the trigger. So this post is a vent and a stepping stone towards maybe getting back on that train. I just know it's gonna be brutal.

Anyway, thanks for coming to my TED talk.