Besides that I think at this point beating them is the only way. I "live" in a small town where you have to really "know someone from old times" to actually establish a friendship and you literally can't find a pussy to fuck. I seem to have wasted my money on soundproofing windows that I have been working from my job to get them, I wasted 1100€ on these windows and still I enounter these life-sabotaging annoyances every day. In Monday, I have a Skype call with my friend guiding through my programming queries and this obnoxious noise-pollution from the motorbikes annoyed hell out of me and it definitely disturbs mine and your concetration, it is physically impossible for a human to tolerate this kind of noise.

I am thinking of moving out once I get my 20000€ at June since this is literally unbearable plus I want to actually LIVE my life not trapped at this dumpster shithole peasant town-village with everyone under 60 IQ. The police by the way illegally does the absolute nothing or horribly under-functions.

I thought many times, even got my motorcycle/motorbike to hunt onsle down, I had a physical altercation by punching one of these teenagers back in September but he cowardly got his family of 3 cowards to cowardly attack me by trespassing in my own house and me seething-ly sperging las mentally ill lunatics suffering many mental breakdowns per second whil ironically insulting me "yOu aRe fOr thE pSychIatrIc hoSpitAls". Nonetheless this made it worse and the kid or his friend too much air of audacity to desperately torment me by obnoxiously re-annoying me every single day then with his horde of illegal-exhaust engine gypso-peasant friends by most unbearable re-revving up from my house until police caught them eventually since many charges were accumulated over these 2 weeks. I was working as a mechanic back then from August to March. I thought recently even hunting down a motocycle/motorbike but I still lost it. I run quickly as fast as I could downstairs. I think violence is the only solution frankly at this point but still it is too taxing for me to hit a human being and do this shit all over again. The reason is that I need to mentally prepare plus it is tiring mentally, I got into fights all my life, I feel like "retiring" as stupid as this sounds. Because I always fight and fight and nothing happens, I wasted my life on this shit, I wasted my youth on this shit in a land of cowards who cowardly pull up their family members to cowardly fight me like Gypsies in Datsun cowardly pull up their whole families to fight 1 person. And the worst is that my parents are like against house security and they will definitely never fix the entrance doors, everyone lost the keys to entrance doors and everyone can intrusively enter. And when the Albanian cleaning lady cleans the house it opens them wide open, and they have this stupid policy now.

I am trapped in this shithole and it seems in my life I never accomplished what I wanted. I was left TOO FAR behind in my expectasions, the Albanian girl who was most likely a psychopathic narcissist who manipulated other people to either get friends or get closer to a partner she wanted, who starred in some kind of music track porno with half of her face on the cover with the guy she manipulated to get spotlight and admiration or sexual status, who pathologically lied, didn't even want me. She was definitely "shy" and a good girl at the beginning before her mask fell, now she is fucking some alpha high status or musical talent guy not a beta like me. It feels my testosterone fell also and I didn't de-pussify my brain, even if I did, hyperemotional raging cuck mentally ill Rhomioi/"Greeks" who illegally trespass my house and psychotically sperg suffering mental breakdowns per second with full audacity always tried to squash it.

There is a perpetual shame culture in the rotten shithole peasant villagey town I "live" and when I dominantly look someone in the eye I am worried if things escalate too much and I get into physical fight where I will be blamed again even though I self-defended myself, because I have history with the police and nobody supported me in my life, not even my own father at the September event who crawled submissively to blindly believe the mentally ill cowardly attackers that I hit their son jnstwad of outright supporting and believing me as a true father always does and unconditionally. If my son was in such danger and was hit: 1. I would had already called the police for charges and declare myself a witness and 2. I would had threw hands and not talk with my son's cowardly assaulting criminal like some pathetic cuck.

Furthermore my hair greyed from stress or an anxiety. I always wanted to be a psychopath and dark triad like the Albanian girl I wanted to fuck and I beaten but still I never accomplished it it seems. I didn't accomplish a composed and fearless but still concetrated mind who can undisruptedly devotes itself like 8 hours of the day to academically study and 2 hours at music and if someone obnoxiously re-annoys him by re-revving up with illegal exhaust engines, to effectibely haunt him down and beat him without cowardice, hesitation and fear. Until nobody is left to product sound pollution.

Forgive me if the post seems charged but still there is no other way to utter the faithful context.