I keep making myself look like a dumbass and putting myself into vulnerable positions where I feel like I have to defend myself because of my tendency to brag, and my fragile fucking ego.
Like very recently I mentioned in a comment somewhere that I've slept with just north of 100 women over the course of my life, which is the absolute truth, not an exaggeration.
The comment was made to serve a point I was making about something related to the topic, but I'd be lying if I said I didn't feel any pride typing it out. I'm aware of this.
I know how saying something like that makes me look, but yet I still say this kind of shit anyway because I have huge fucking ego. Inevitably I get remarks about how only "insecure people brag", "if you have to brag it isn't true", or "the most you've probably slept with is two bodies".
While I could just totally ignore these comments or handle them with the usual amused mastery or literally anything but get defensive, I start to get defensive. As if this post wasn't autistic enough. How do I cut out this bullshit? Why do I feel the need to brag or even mention something like that? What is the insecurity stemming from? I know I don't have to prove anything to anyone, yet I still do it. I am a very prideful person, but I'm also aware this is completely fucking stupid.
Edit: I think I know what the issue is actually. While it's true that that's my notch count, it's also true that I haven't been laid in quite a while (my last lay was a year ago). I think this is why I feel compelled to compensate for the drought by boasting about my sexual history.

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First-light 2 2y ago
It can be fun to cultivate restraint -like you are just above it all. So always play down your abilities.
"Yeah I run a bit" "I lift a little" "I am Ok at (a subject you always got straight A's in)" It takes time but eventually there is a sort of delayed gratification thing in it for you. They all talk themselves up and you praise them up while they do it, then only when they ask, you casually mention how fast you can run three miles, what you can dead lift and the fact you got first class honours in your degree.
Just be gentle with them at the end when you drop the bombshell because if you do it in a dismissive way, it can actually make them all defensive and looking for a way to beat you next time. You just want them thinking "sheesh, he's a dark horse"
MidgetSpinner 2y ago
I do this in regards to my drumming, I'll downplay it, but when it comes to sex I'm always compelled to brag to other dudes. Think it's this competitive nature. I don't brag to women about it though. I intentionally leave things like that a grey area. This is solid advice though.
Lone_Ranger 3 2y ago
Some good stuff in the comments already.
I would say self analysis is key. Take time to sit down with yourself and think about your motivations and your flaws.
"The unexamined life is not worth living"
That was Socrates who said that. He was right. Most people just cruise through life, crashing into things, never addressing their own character flaws, never even noticing them.
The fact that you realise that there is something a bit off about being proud of your body count tells me that you are on to something. Self analysis means simply sitting down with yourself and asking yourself questions, without being harsh on yourself.
Why am I proud of having slept with over 100 women? Is it some sort of achievement? Does it mean anything to me, to others?
Does it prove anything? What did I gain by sleeping with 100 women? What did it cost me? If I could speak to my young self, would I recommend this as a course of action? Am I using notch count as a proxy for something else? What might that be? Did it bring me happiness? Or peace? Or wisdom? Would I do it again if I had my time again? Why do I care if some random dudes 'accuse' me of only having slept with 2 women? Why do I care what other people think of me, other people for whom I have zero respect?
Do you see what I mean? These are all open questions, not judgemental. There is no scolding. No shaming.
EurasianChad 1 2y ago
It's not bragging if they bring it up. You can just casually say "yeah I do alright" when obviously you fucking slay it.
Or you can just redirect the question to a random observation. End of the day, if you are happy with who you are when you wake up and look in the mirror, who gives a fuck what they think dude?
Don't allow weaker people to get into your head. Have your own value system & principles.
MidgetSpinner 2y ago
I was the one that brought it up, and had enough self awareness before typing the comment to realise I'd get hate or that I would appear braggadocious yet I punched the comment in anyway
EurasianChad 1 2y ago
Doesn't really matter IMO. Keep it moving. Who cares if they think you're bragging. Only thing that matters is what you think of yourself. Prove your ego correct.
MrSupreme 2y ago
It's ok to brag a bit, if your only bragging point (point of origin) is about your sex life then maybe it is because you're lacking somewhere else in your life,you don't feel as proud and dignified by your other accomplishments, it just doesn't fill you as much as women's validation. And/Or also you low-key look down on other men who don't have a high notch count, you may be competitive about it.
Try and shift your focus towards your fitness,job,profession or other skills. It is very easy to have an inflated ego after having a successful sex life,it's the easiest way I think.
MidgetSpinner 2y ago
If I'm being honest, I do think a part of it is that I look down on some other men. I realise that makes me an asshole, but I'm just being totally honest. I am competitive as well and am definitely lacking in some other areas at the moment - way too much free time, and haven't been laid in a while. You nailed all of that.
Vermillion-Rx Admin 2y ago
By being humble.
MidgetSpinner 2y ago
I think I was more humble once upon a time, I don't remember how or why but I definitely was. I've got a lot of ego these days especially concerning my notch count and prowess and blah blah blah. How do you humble yourself in this regard?
Feyd0 2y ago
Likely a result of some sort of insecurity from your upbringing. Used to be a problem for me too, even until recently. If you spent any amount of time feeling insignificant or like a loser, its not easy to stop yourself from rubbing it in everyones face when you level up. I know how it feels to want everyone to know what a superstar you are.
There are a number of things you'll have to address, but a big thing here is self-control. This is something you practice and get better at with time. I came to realise you start your day with a very limited amount of energy. If you don't control the things you give a fuck about, you will waste it on bullshit like defending yourself against faggots online or bragging to people who don't actually give a fuck. Instead, manage your energy, put it into things you care about like improving yourself. The more you exercise your self-control muscle the stronger it will get, and the less urges you will feel to prove yourself to people.
Its not the be all end all but its a start. Hope this helps.
slowlylearning1 2y ago
Great post.
I've gone from fat to fit. And there was a stage there where I was almost looking down on fat people ; believing I was so much better than them cos I did the work. When women started showing IOIs, flirting, touching, sitting next to me, starting up conversations - I was dangerously closing to entering douche territory. Yet managed to reign it in, because all of US are just a few bad decisions or luck away from bad things happening to us be it illness, weight gain, depression, unemployment.
Having gone from fat to fit ; no women to women etc. People love a good character arc, but be an inspiration to others who want to get in shape too, and you won't need to brag or boast. If you live a busy, active, fit life you'll gain more experiences, stories that will naturally come out in front of others.
Feyd0 2y ago
Right on. Put out the right energy and you'll naturally gravitate towards people and situations that are good for you. I've never met a strong man who is confident in himself that felt the need to brag. Character speaks for itself.
Lone_Ranger 3 2y ago
brilliant reply, would give coins if I could.
Feyd0 2y ago
Thank you mate. No need for coins haha.
Tlalox 2y ago
What do you value more, the knowledge, work and charm it took to become the man whom 100 women wanted to fuck, or the approval of random internet strangers?
Only thing you can do is use your willpower to focus on things you actually want and the actions that lead to those outcomes and somehow learn to accept everything else is out your control.
TheRedPike Senior Endorsed 2y ago
One day sometime in the future, everything you’ve done will not matter at all any more. When you come to terms with this, like really internalize it, it is super easy to just stop caring.