Not being able to make your own choices is NOT manly, I know, but still

I've never had a youth, I used to walk for 7-8-9 hours a day because I missed social interaction with anyone, I literally didn't speak to anyone and this made me almost become a lunatic, where you had these young guys drive in nice cars (even though they rented them for a week, a day, or whatever) they still made great memories (fucked girls in the said cars, brought them to hotels and fucked them, and so on)

Yes, not very wise choices money-wise, you can fuck in a park too blabla, but the key point I want to point out is that in 20 years they will have those nice memories

And I? I didn't do jack shit, I wasted those years, I broke down when I walked past crowded squares in the evenings where people were enjoying their time TOGETHER, laughing TOGETHER, eating TOGETHER, getting an ice cream TOGETHER and so on, I literally felt high in my head and it felt like I could fall to the ground anytime because I was really broken

Anyways, I don't even know why I am telling that while the title is "Should I buy a bike" I just haven't had anyone that I could say it to lol

So the bike is like 10 grand, I am a student and living at home, it's not a very wise choice, I am aware of that but I would like to have your opinion on it, I will not have a lot anymore if I buy the bike

At least I can have some memories of me having this awesome bike instead of not spending the money on anything (saving it, until I get hit by a truck and die without ever having enjoyed the money)

Would you say fuck it too and do it anyways?

Ive never made such a choice and it feels weird to do so, that's why I am asking you guys