Hi everyone,

I had a crazy glow up this past year. My bench went up 100lbs to 275 now, I am about 175 lbs at 10% bodyfat 6'0, have a 40 inch vertical, have proper hair and good style now. I am extremely comfortable with myself and generally love how I look and developed a bit of an ego.

The problem is: my personality has become that of a jester, think of someone who's depressed and tries to compensate in every interaction by being extremely enthusiastic or extremely monotone, it's like I act like I'm 24/7 hung over or cracked out and it's very off putting to women. I rarely drink maybe once every two weeks and don't do drugs.

I'm in a stem based university and I have a lot of high quality male friends. But when it comes to women, I always pull a HB7/10, then eventually due to scarcity or unaddressed slight mommy issues eventually date her because I feel like I owe it to her even when we're not entirely compatible. Eventually I get sick of being overly attached and thus being drained after 3 or so months and break up with her. After that I get depressed and don't talk to women for months and lose the ability to. This cycle has lasted 3 years so far.

There was a month here and there in the past where I would be able to consistently pull 1-2 HB8 a week 2 years ago before my major glowup... Now I'm lucky to get a HB7 a month and I know this is due to my personality.

Does anybody have any honest advice? I have a really good career and amazing physical stats but I'm honestly just so socially inept, I get invited to no parties and lost the ability to game at clubs. Wtf is going on with me.

This post is 100% serious, I am seriously lonely even though I have a lot of very cool male friends.