I'm from Eastern Europe ( Sofia), I am 24 years old I have been with my girlfriend for 4 years, I have studied Red pill since I was 16, but somehow I ended in this relationship and I don't know what to do, she gives me anal, threesomes, and mostly anything I ask for but she is really clingy and wants to spend all the time with me which leaves me with little choice in how I go about my day between univeristy ( I study Med school). She helped me a lot in the past and she is still helping me a lot, but I just can't forget about how I used to hit the clubs and get girls, I can't go nightgame with her ( not because she is against it, she likes to hit the clubs and us talking to girls but pulling a threesome straight from the club is really unbelievly hard so yes, usually we can go for some LGBTQs bars or tinder but that's it). Usually we have like 8 threesomes a year each with a new girl ( she would be down for more but it is hard to find new girls). All my life I wanted to have fun in my twenties and I actually plan on doing that but I m scared of leaving her because she helped me a lot and I love her( yeah pussy me I know) and she is a really good girl, she wants to marry me and give me children, also she isn't interested in any men, she only likes girls and me. My bodycount right now is 29, I m scared that I will get to 30 before reaching 100, but school is hard here and I'm really weak mentally so if I leave her I might go depressed and not be able to the my duties. I just think I will regret all of it and I'm scared of it. I never really been a traditional guy, I just wanna fuck and have fun and maybe later when I'm in my 30s marry and have kids. Help a fellow guy stuck in life guys, thank you for reading this.