So I never met her but somehow I agreed to delete my tinder for her and send her the screenshots to prove it! She never showed me any screenshots of her deleting it but I took her word. She lives in Brazil and I agreed to go there and visit! We agreed to be monogamous after 3 days of talking.

So I've been chatting to a girl on the Internet (tinder). I explained to her I'm currently a broker in the insurance business but I plan to go to become a truck driver and make more money. I also plan to flip cars on the side as we have space in the neighbourhood. I dont have the time to flip the cars so that can be her job when she comes to visit me.

She told me she was involved with the ceo of a steel company for 4 years. She worked for him as a maid and he was 50. After 4 years she told the police he beat and raped her. She told me her family disowned her but somehow agreed to move back in the family house and pay rent.

She has a low end job in Brazil she's some type of retail worker. I met her on Tinder I think she set her location to global.

Anyway why do I love her? I never met her! I have a bodycount of 20 girls. She stole my heart! She even send me videos of her to me.

We had a few fights which resulted in me blocking her but I always went back to her. I was so upset when we ended up fighting that I unbloked her 2 times and went back to apologise, I even used my mother's WhatsApp to contact her after we broke up.

She previously told me she has been to the psychiatric hospital and she told me she stayed there for 30 days typed up but I still continued talking to her. She takes 6 diffrent anypsychotics however she says she doesn't need them and often skips on her medicine and almost never takes it.

But I stayed and continue talking to her I even told her that the plan is I visit her for 2 weeks, she comes and stays with me for 4 months where she will earn a wage selling cars for me and all she has to do is fuck me. She agreed. She told me when I visit her in Brazil she's too afraid another girl will steal me from her so she won't go to work as her boss will understand and she can pay for her absence??? (I don't understand latin work ethic don't they have a business to run??)

Anyway I agreed. But, the thing what upset me is she told me she only slept with 5 guys. Then she said it was 6. Yesterday we had a big fight and she told me to block her so I did. I told her "If I find out you've been with 10 guys or more I don't want you anymore" because I generally don't like promiscuous women. I don't like the idea of being the 11th guy and as I have to marry her, I don't want to get divorced raped as I will own property in the future. She couldn't belive it! She said I have no right to comment on her past as I told her I slept with strippers on cocaine. I did. It was fun! Anybody who is depressed should do cocaine and fuck a stripper. It's the best anti depressant our there. I was so upset after our fight that I ended up seeing an escort as she made me delete my tinder and I had no girls to go back to. I sent her screenshots of my messeges.

I just don't understand why my brain misses her so much? I think she is an alpha widow by a ceo who literally mistreated her. I wanted to treat her so well yet she just fucked me and my brain so hard????

Can someone please make me understand this I have no idea why I miss her when I never met her? She also said she can get guys better looking than me. I don't understand why I want to unblock her and messege her saying I'm sorry for having standard's?? How many guys has she fucked if she literally had such a go at me.

Guys can you save me from unblocking her and saying I'm sorry? I redownloaded tinder to try and talk to some other girls and get my mind of her.