I say “previous” because I try not to call her oneitis anymore because I’d rather cut my dick off than date her.

Here is the thing: I am fucking broke and the asshole government won’t give me government assistance and I have been applying to jobs without getting any, and there’s only like 5 jobs (all of which I applied to) that are decent jobs where I wouldn’t be a typical wage cuck and where I’d not want to kill myself. Her job is actually decent and it’s one that has a job posting. I have avoided applying there but dude, even fucking AMAZON does not have jobs near me.

This situation is making me depressed - having no money. How bad would it be if I applied there?

I probably won’t get the job but I feel like such a bitch by avoiding applying somewhere just because a specific woman works there.

What are your thoughts?