Nobody will know my story, all this time trying to move ahead will be wasted. I'm fucked. I feel all the sides from antidepressant, memory problems, i don't remember what people tell me, but i don't any benefit.
Tried to take a walk in the park and felt horrible looking at all those cute girls, the idea that they are all fucking easily while i spent my 34 alone trying to do something that girls start doing naturally at age 14
The only reason you won't hear from me in the news is that i live in Europe, at most i can kill myself.
It's time to admit that mental illness and redpill awareness don't go well together, i worked hard to try to improve myself. Always pushing forward, holding on, always reading to learn to manage bipolar disorder and also learn about diet and lifting
It was a lonely journey, the last time i was in bed with a girl i was 21, now I'm 34
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No-Stress-Cat 1 3y ago
Proper diet and lifting is a good start. Pretty soon you won't need the anti-depressants because your body will normalize itself, including your brain. You might talk to your doctor about cutting back on your dose, or even switching to a less powerful anti-depressant.
Vermillion-Rx Admin 3y ago
I have bipolar disorder and a bunch of other mental shit
Are you at all improving and focusing on your mission or is it just girls on your mind
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Vermillion-Rx Admin 3y ago
I'm having a manic episode right now over something going on in my life. I have been hospitalized for mania
What makes you think I am unable to make the determination in a comment reply that I indeed have a disorder I assert that I have?
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Diabs 3y ago
I think this runs deeper than the state of the SMP I see allot of people identifying with their mental illness and getting stuck in the "solution" meds, therapy and googling about yourself it's a trap that has so many factors and it's getting worse and worse with every generation.
God bless good luck keep fighting
RememberingAlpha 3y ago
I was on SSRIs, had the brain fog, everything.
Ketamine therapy saved my life. If you have access in europe go for it. It regrows the neurons and reforges neural pathways in the brain. You can heal years of damage in months. I was on 11 prescription meds, now I'm on zero.
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RememberingAlpha 3y ago
So for context I now am a partner and help operate a Ketamine clinic. I believe in it that much.
Ketamine works by physically stimulating neuron growth / healing of neural pathways. To get results you do six-eight “loading doses”. 2 sessions a week for a month is ideal cadence.
That said, it is a LOT like going to the gym. If you go once, you’ll get sore/have an experience, and then nothing happens if you don’t do the work and go back.
The neurological benefits should be permanent. Once your brain is healed, it’s healed.
The mental health work, taking advantage of the dissociated psychedelic experience to address traumas and anxiety, takes upkeep just like going to the gym.
I still go for a “booster” every 2 months or so. It’s become an effective tool for me to process and come to terms with life.
There are those who will say oh well clearly it doesn’t work if you keep going back. Well, does the gym not really work then if you have to keep that up too?
I am a professional in the field and am happy to be a resource but am not eager to dox myself with the perception of the manosphere to normies.
Also I agree with the below that getting your test levels checked is essential. My levels were half of what they should’ve been. Low dose trt changed my life.
whytehorse2021 3y ago
Sounds like low testosterone. SSRIs are associated with low testosterone. https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/28179152/
kend 3y ago
I'm bipolar and what worked for me was letting go.. i focus on being productive instead