Hey guys a little bit of venting here. Last few years have been rough. I miss having a group of friends to hang out with and could always count on for plans.. shits fucking lonely man. I miss the the fun times and laughing so hard you wouldn't stop for minutes on end. I know some people like the lone wolf thing but damn it's really fucked me up.

That's the end of vent as I really want to move past all that. A little bit about where I am in life.. (Yes I lift, been doing it for years and coming up on the end of my first steroid cycle with great results, lots of compliments from people. Been told I'm good looking too.) Been a busy past few years with grad school but finally have some time to work on myself again. Damn I am struggling to make solid friends. I'm realizing this isn't really new. Other than friends I grew up with I haven't really been accepted into other friend groups. Friends I had in college weren't really my friends if I'm being honest.. I hung out with them a decent amount but they never really reached out to invite me to shit, I always had to reach out. I'm not saying any of this to look for pity because I know its no ones fault but my own. I've seen people who are good at this be accepted and make friends so quick and damn I'm jealous.

I've actually been part of a decent friend group in grad school that I can call my friends. But still I can't seem to steer the plans of the group in my favor. If there's an event I want to go to I can't get people to commit. But as soon as the cool guy in the group wants to do something everyone is very down all of a sudden. Pretty frustrating man.

Anyways I've gotta be honest with myself and know I need work socially. I wasn't terrible before but I've definitely regressed a lot. I've been trying to fill my schedule with as much plans as possible. I've gotta just keep putting myself out there. Is there anything else to it? I have faith that I'm headed in the right direction and things will pan out eventually. Any advice and pep talks appreciated!