Serious replies only, by people who know what they do.

This girl, an absolute 9.5/10, joined my charity recently (a national charity with several branches). She's model material with 100k+ followers and such. However, all of her pictures are tasteful, they are more on the beauty classy side than the "sexy" side.

I didn't pay much attention to her at all, and kind of wrote her off as one of those social media attention seekers. and I don't have much time anyway, I already have a gf.

Anyway, a few months on, she finally spends some good time in my branch. At the charity I have good status as the head of my geo region with a fair amount of responsibility and clout.

She drops a couple of hints that I ignore. I honestly thought she was playing with my head and wanting attention - there are far too many of these overly flirty girls at this charity and I try my best to keep my head below that. On the third hint she got me curious and I asked for her number.

I asked her out for a drink and I was thinking a quick 30 minutes get to know each other. 7 hours later, many laughs, jokes, probably about 4 or 5 glasses of wine and multiple bars.

Long story short we had an absolute blast. Turns out she was somewhat nervous of me and enjoyed the night immensely. I could tell she was nervous because of body language and such. She recounts many instances that she observed me over the last few months, some of which I didn't even remember that showed she was paying attention a lot and she was clearly intrigued by me for whatever reason...

Anyway attraction was clear. I was somewhat gobsmacked actually but did my best not to show it. She has people after her by the droves I'm not kidding. She's accomplished but I did get a hint of loneliness - I think a lot of people are straight up intimidated by her.

Over the following days I asked her out one more time before she left. Once again I plan a couple of quick things but we end up with 6-7 hours of flirting, laughs and all around great time.

However, one key thing is she was extremely resistant to physical escalation. I didn't get much after these 2 days, which was wild for me because I am used to take a girl home after 1-2 hours of talking to her, sometimes less (my n count is 100+).

And so we parted on good terms and I do my standard radio silence. I write her off at this point although the sexual and emotional energy is through the roof. I never see a girl again if she doesn't put out in the first "date" or night out (except for my current gf where we slept on the second date), much less the second.

She reaches out a number of times over text, and I say why the hell not but I wanted to lay down the law, we meet again for a date, which I open by saying I am not sure where she sees this going but she should save her time if she doesn't see this escalating somewhere interesting, I do not want us to waste each others time.

At this point, she breaks down, shaking in my arms, tells me she has a long distance bf, she doesn't see it going anywhere, and she's unsure what to do in life - at this point she can barely give eye contact. She said she doesn't understand why I wanted to speed things up so much (I honestly don't understand, I got the vibe she was extremely reserved and conservative and doesn't sleep around, sure, but I'm not waiting around forever, she must be living under a rock if she thinks I'll stick around without escalating or if she is used to guys doing that with her).

I do my best to calm things down, and once again we enjoy another 3 hours of fun and laughter, with some tasteful dancing to good music. I cut it somewhat short, We part ways - and I tell her she should figure stuff out before we meet again. All on amicable terms and she agreed.

I also found that she is honest, uncomplicated, replies to texts immediately. Just a breath of fresh air compared to the mind games and maze of shit tests I get with other girls, albeit extremely resistant to any form of serious physical escalation, which I attribute to a strongly held belief that she shouldn't be cheating. Probably Fair.

So at this point I'm staring at my fucking computer screen and I cannot get her out of my mind. I'm honestly not sure whether I should pursue this any further.

Part of me thinks I am wasting my time, and the other part you can tell is going through waves of MOFO and I want to see this progress. God knows she charmed the fuck out of me that's for sure (and I, of her, too). fuck.

Any ideas on how to deal with this are appreciated.

(also if you're going to moralise me go stuff it i don't care).