Might be a long post, but I'll try my best not to do that.
We were together for nearly 2 years. Living together too. Younger than me by 7 years - I'm 34. She was very cute, petite, smart, ambitious, eccentric, sarcastic and affectionate with an amazing ass. My ideal girl basically.
I don't want to drone on about how the break up affected me, but let's just say it affected me a lot more than I thought it would. I thought I was truly Red Pilled and could handle anything that happened, but then this happened. I've got plates spinning again, but I just do not feel anything for them. I love sex of course, and I've had more than enough of it to fill 3 average lifetimes, but at this point it's all starting to feel meaningless. Connection is what I want more than anything, as sad as that might sound.
But as nice as these other girls are, none of them compare to her. Yeah, I know, major oneitis, right? I don't even lack abundance. I just fucking loved and adored this girl. Good girls are genuinely hard to find. I know there's more out there, and this will all eventually pass, but it's been nearly 2 months now and I still can't get her out of my head no matter what I do.
I made the mistake of checking her social media recently, and she's been posting half-naked pics of herself, acting like a bit of a hoe. She's fully entitled to do that of course, and it's none of my business at all, and you may say AWALT, but that is very out of character for her to do.
She was never like that, even before I met her. Of course every woman has the potential to behave like a hoe now and again, but it's a very sudden character change for her and actually goes against what she claimed would be her moral values. She was 1000% a hoe in the bedroom for me however, and extremely loyal. I know this for a fact. I was the one who fucked the relationship up, I admit it. I got off my purpose and started becoming more and more focused on the relationship. I could see it happening in real time, but failed to correct course.
Help me dudes. It's pathetic enough that I'm feeling this way, let alone at my age. I should know better than this, and I should be better than this. It's not like I haven't been through break ups before. This one just hit different.
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MidgetSpinner 1y ago
Not saying some of your advice isn't good, but you didn't fuck or kiss or have any kind of relationship with this girl? And you had oneitis?
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MidgetSpinner 1y ago
Work on your self esteem. Believe you can get those 8s, 9s, 10s. Being an attractive man is more about your mindset than anything else. Everything else is a bonus, or can be worked on. Change your mindset. Forget this bitch, and get some abundance.
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MrSupreme 1y ago
2 years is a while, it has only been 2 months, give it some time don't push the healing process
MidgetSpinner 1y ago
You're right, but those 2 months have felt like a fucking eternity haha. What's more annoying is that she seems to have moved on quicker than I expected. In the beginning of the breakup, she was having loads of moments of weakness, was worried I was gonna get plates (I did), but then I slipped up and told her I still loved her and all the rest of that simp shit and she withdrew. Now she's adding fuck loads of people on her social media, INCLUDING old exes. I think I'm the only ex that isn't on any of her social media, and she's making unusual posts. I've got a hunch that she's not totally over this, and is looking for validation or something to fill the void.
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MidgetSpinner 1y ago
I questioned that myself. Maybe I like pain?
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MidgetSpinner 1y ago
Slightly unrelated, but I made her squirt and cum multiple times near enough every time we fucked. And we fucked often, even near the end. I know it's just my ego talking, and I will heed your advice, but a girl is not gonna forget something like that in a hurry is she?
I remember the last time we had sex - breakup sex, she was horny as fuck for me, but was in two minds about having sex because of the situation. When I made her squirt though, she said "that's why I can't say no to you". Can't be too many men that will be able to fulfil that for her, not average men at least.
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MidgetSpinner 1y ago
Well, I'm struggling to let go of her. I know getting back with her would be a bad idea, especially right now in the state of mind I'm in. My frame is not what it usually would be, but that's besides the point. The goal here is to get over her.
whytehorse2021 1y ago
Take 2 snorts of oxytocin while cumming in a HB10 prostitute and call me in the morning. Seriously, your brain chemistry is what's going on. Learn from your mistakes, reset the brain either through natural means(oxytocin via sex) or artificial(snorting oxytocin during sex). Men's brain chemistry changes after mating. You're in that phase. Get out of it. Also do some combat sports.
MidgetSpinner 1y ago
I know fucking girls will help for a moment, but it's not really in my interest to start rebounding. I don't see that as healthy. Done it all before. Combat sports is a great suggestion though, Tate.
whytehorse2021 1y ago
Adrenalin is a Taup G drug, mate. Or you could almost fall off a cliff while mountain biking... same effect. Don't ask me how I know.
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mattyanon Admin 1y ago
It's not out of character at all.
It's out of the character YOU thought she had. Maybe she even projected a good girl image to you. But now that you're not together, this is the real girl coming out.
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MidgetSpinner 1y ago
No, she is very moralistic in this regard. I get exactly what you're saying, and normally I would agree but this is something different. I think she's acting out, she's probably not in a rational state of mind herself. She has never ever done anything like this before, not publically. Sharing nudes with guys privately? Yeh, sure. She did with me before we met, obviously anti-slut defense is a thing too, and I'm aware of that, but this is not like her at all. Even her own mother can see these pics. It's odd for her, it seems forced.
I also didn't mention that she's a single mother, and is concerned about what men come in and out of her life for the sake of her 4 year old daughter. So her actually being a slut doesn't serve that at all. She's not a trashy person, but for the right guy I'm sure she'll bend rules like she did for me.
mattyanon Admin 1y ago
Dude, listen to yourself.
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MidgetSpinner 1y ago
Yep. My first ever. Believe me, I know what you're gonna say. It's why I didn't mention it in the main post.
The kid was cool. I grew to love her, but the reason I took the chance was because I loved my ex a lot, and saw a decent future. Trust me, I thought many times about what a mistake it might have been.
crimsonchin03 1y ago
This is not the right sub to talk about ex's.
Let me explain why.
TRP believes in abundance and no oneitis for a girl.
People assume shes your ex for a reason, therefore you should never get back with her. Ever again. Especially if you made a mistake and you fucked it up. (Makes no sense but ive seen this be ignored many many times). I heard AlphaMaleStrategies make a very valid point, you should only want to get back with your ex only if YOU fucked up.
AlphaMaleStrategies said something so true that ive always known of: No matter how fucking red pill you are you will eventually meet the right girl that will make you want to go purple pill eventually in your lifetime. And redpill men will NEVER empathize with that, NEVER.
95% of redpill men online, IMO, are younger guys who take everything way too literal and apply no practical advice. For example, you meet a good girl, its ONEITIS. Theres no gray area between. You should be spinning plates bro! The inexperienced guys who never spinned plates dont realize its an empty game and not fulfilling once you are truly confident. Spinning plates has its place, not knocking it at all. All LTR's should be a plate, so its a necessary process.
A lot of redpill men online, have arrived here from being a loser in life. So, a lot of these anonymous users are men who will sabotage your relationships with their advice. Some of it accidentally, they have no real life experience. The others will sabotage on purpose, because people can be petty and envious for no reason. Ive taken advice from this sub before and it ruined my plate last year. The same guy who gave me advice was making posts a few months later and it was obvious he was less experienced then i was! He was talking a big game when giving me advice...
This is no longer Reddit's asktrp. That place was special. This one is a castrated island with the same 10-15 posters. Its a very small echo chamber here. You are not getting good advice from a select few.
MidgetSpinner 1y ago
Couldn't agree more with all of this, man. I don't know about being on step 10 though. After the breakup, it feels like I'm back at square one. The Red Pill prepares you for life, is to help you understand women better, get women and become a better man, but experience, pain and time with that is what develops true understanding. What it doesn't teach you, is how to have and maintain a healthy relationship IMO. Or perhaps I've missed that information. Either way, you're right. This feels nothing like the old asktrp sub, unfortunately. So how do we make this forum bigger, and develop a more broader and experienced variety of members and advice? And if that's not possible, then where the fuck is that place? I miss r/asktrp.
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crimsonchin03 1y ago
Yes I wont name any names, but ive seen it often. Those same guys would make posts and its clear they were losers or simps. Whenever someone comments like that i know they are probably in the first year or two of their redpill journey and regurgitating sidebar material.
bymxco 1y ago
Im currently going through this too. My ex of 1 yr, I made a mistake and broke up with her, she treated me very good but i pushed her away at the end of the relationship and i ended it because i lead the relationship downhill and it felt like i couldnt recover it this time. I broke up, I made the mistake and reached out a few days after. She didnt want me back because i hurt her. Started No Contact from there. 5 weeks now.
Just like you ive been dating other women, and i hooked up with a rebound a week later. Pretty girl, nice body. We had very mediocre sexual chemistry and chatting with her in between rounds felt like we had no chemistry compared to my ex. This is going to sound so fucking weak but I cried on the way home after fucking that girl. Only because it was about a week after and i had no business dating other women in the same week i shouldve been grieving alone lmao. I was basically sad all day before the date. Anyways To fuck a pretty girl and have it remind you of your ex was a scary feeling to have, Ive never had that before and my n-count is around 80. Meaning ive walked away from 70-80 girls before this and had no attachment post-break up.
Im now in week 5 and she has been acting weird on social media like shes trying to get my attention. I have this strange feeling that she wants me to reach out to fix things, because i felt like i didnt give a true apology after the break up.
Im not going to lie, the first 2-3 weeks were horrible. Around week 3-5 is when she started ramping up her weird behavior on social media: posting photos with a dress i bought her, posting heart break memes, etc. When she started doing this, it relieved a lot of my anxiety about never getting her back. I felt like she was cracking first and thats all i needed to see. I have this confidence that one day I will get her back, but I need some time to work on myself. I want to only contact her when I truly changed and am able to show her this. Even if she may want me back now and we get back together I will probably repeat the same mistakes.
So basically its week 5 for me. Ive heard most couples get back together between months 2 and 3 of NC. So i plan on reaching out in 7 more weeks (3 months total). Im socializing every day, literally going out to cafes and bars meeting new people in this new city i live in. Its helping a lot, and i feel my SMV is increasing and this will help me become better if i ever get back with my ex.
Ok lets get to the meat and bones here. What is your gameplan with your ex? You guys broke up, you feel like shit. Have you tried asking for her back? Are you deciding to move on? Are you working on yourself? Did she break up with you.....?
Durek_The_Bald 1y ago
People say time heals, but it's really sleep. Have you ever said or done something socially or professionally that just made you cringe really hard at yourself afterwards? But then you get a couple of nights of good sleep, and it's like you genuinely DGAF, even though the memory is still there, clear as day. You can think about it, but you don't feel compelled to go: "uuuuugh" anymore. Your brain has basically detached and scrapped a negative emotion from the memory.
It's like that, only for a bit longer.
So make sure you get enough quality sleep, and don't go reinforcing those same emotions in between. No contact, no stalking SoMe, no looking through pictures on your phone, no going through old messages, plenty of good sleep, and you're good. Also, try and stay away from alcohol and drugs for the time being - even cannabis. All those things mess with your deep sleep, which is when the magic happens.
I know fucking a bunch of sluts is a popular problem solver around here, but I really don't think it works for this kind of situation. First of all, everything is relative, so spending time with low quality, low value slappers will only reinforce it in your head that your ex was some kind of unicorn (which obviously she wasn't). Secondly, if the lifestyle involved with that - drinking alcohol, staying up late, crashing in someone else's bed, them crashing in yours - is going to mess with the quality of your sleep, then it's a double negative. Prioritize sleep over sluts.
Problematic_Browser 1 1y ago
You're too old to be acting like this.
It was only 2 years. Hit the gym, find a hobby, and slam it into someone new.