She treats me so well in person, best sex, makes me dinner, breakfast. Submissive almost to the degree of a doormat, however I do not ever abuse that privilege. She has never gave me attitude or nasty tone, we have been together for 9 months.

Its just that she absolutely never texts me first. It makes me feel like I am investing or LTR'd the wrong chick. I know its irrational, because if she wasnt high interest then she wouldnt be available 24/7, submit etc.

But It creates this dynamic where I feel like I always have to "chase" her when its an established relationship. The thing is when I do text her, she text back within 1-5 minutes, matches my enthusiasm and is very affectionate always available to meetup. There are no signs of a dying relationship here: no shit tests, no lost spark, no dead bedroom, i feel like the chemistry is actually increasing ironically.

*At the end of the day, because of this, I feel like she isnt a real girlfriend***. A real girlfriend to me will text me to hang out, meet up, send sweet texts, let me know theyre thinking about me. This just feels like a really reliable plate, but we are officially exclusive technically. This is great for the sex, but i dont LTR girls for sex only, otherwise they stay at plate status.

I have tried talking to her about it, her excuse was that she doesnt want to suffocate me and seem needy. I thought that was bullshit. Never texting first is not needy, it just makes me feel like youre not the one for me. Because of this, this isnt fulfilling my emotional needs, and i have this urge to dump a good relationship with no stress, in order to find a real girlfriend, or build a rotation again.

*Her way of texting me first is weird. She will post a status on Whatsapp about me; A song about our love, memes about us, statuses that are clearly aimed to get my attention to get me to write her. For example we talked about her cat earlier in the day, she will post a status with her cat, i went to buy a cake with her last week, she posted a status later that day showing the cake, we went on a roadtrip to the beach, she post a love song with lyrics involving road trrips, beach etc.** But will refuse to text me first, how immature is that? Is this a sign of a damaged girl

It just makes me feel like shes taking me for granted. Making me always chase her like shes the prize. Its a fucking LTR not a girl im trying to get on a first date. She also never drunk texts me, i think this is a red flag too. She never texts me that she wants to see me right now, small things like that is what you expect from an exclusive relationship.

She had the audacity to complain that i dont text her enough!! I told her that she never texted me first etc. She said ok i will work on it. She proceeded to text me once or twice first, giving me scraps. Then back to normal behavior.

Recently I have soft nexted her, she has not reached out to me in 9 days now. I feel like shes not scared to lose me, a real girlfriend would reach out after 9 days of no contact. I am thinking of just breaking up within a week or two from now. If I were to break the soft next and text her now, she would write back in 5 minutes however.

It gives me this impression that if we broke up she would never text me to get back together, she treats me like a plate basically but we are exclusive.

Am I crazy to dump a HB8 LTR with no shit-tests, over this?

Tldr; Good behavior submissive HB8 LTR isnt fulfilling my emotional needs, never texts first. Am I being needy for making this a big deal?