Hey All,

Quick Background: Fell in love with a fat chick and got friendzoned and rejected at age of 18. It caused a major trauma for my psychology, This led me to develop a mindset that i was ugly and I was not worthy of being loved, and i should be at peace with it and accept it. This lasted until age of 28, no chasing girls, only got rejected couple of times for putting girls on pedestal and acting like beta. Fucked up i know, kinda wasted my youth.

After 28 somehow I was able to change this mindset due to RP, started lifting and started to see my own value. Financially I saved a lot, got a nice car, and a nice house with a pool. Girls started hitting on me without me hitting on them. They started to see me as mature, emotionally financially stable guy they can depend upon. It literally saved my life as i was thinking of ending things.

However, After all years of practicing RP, again mentally i am gravitating towards to a dark place right now.

After numerous plates, and becoming 33 years old, i started taking potential plates a little more seriously to find a LTR and potentially marry. As all my friends got married and my social life plummetted aside from online dating. I realized that the chase has become a little cumbersome and wished something stable in my life

And i found someone. She was virgin when i met her, 10 years younger than me, 9,5/10 hotness level. Already engaged with her in a year.

However, you know about the hot ones, they feed on male attention. I can see hypergamy explicitly.

And this started to bother me a lot. I dont know if my previous insecurities kicking in. I just feel so fucking jealous when she posts a photo of herself to instagram that is mildly sexy like a in a croptop or something. She has locked account and %70 of her followers are girls, but when some guys like a photo of her i am jealous to my bones. I havent felt that before.

Maybe when i am in LTR zone, Scarcity and and not having abundance mentality is the reason i dont now. But how can i have abundance mentality when i am to select a girl to spend my life with or divide my net worth with. Its not easy to be able to say hey if she doesnt give me what i want i would just divorce her.

To solve that scarcity mentality i started texting some my previous plates, one of them is pretty down to do anything knowing that i am engaged. But it still feels the same.

Well I know i might be acting a little childish and maybe i am being prude. Just i need some mindset to overcome this. Because Jealousy makes me so fucking miserable i cant focus on anything.

Now I am operating in areas i have no experience in. Could you point me to some reading, solution or some mindset that i can solve this feeling? Should i just talk to her about not putting photos of her on insta?

Thanks guys,