Bit of a controversial topic. A very awkward topic.

I watch porn. I've been super fucking busy with work and school that I don't have time to be dating right now. Hell, I barely have time for the gym, I only go twice a week now if I'm lucky.

Anyways, let's cut to the chase: porn is making me insecure as fuck. Every hot girl I see who does OnlyFans, I try to look at their amatuer videos online (of course I don't pay for fucking OF). These girls are hot as FUCK. The problem is, every fucking video I see is them with a black guy.

Now I hope you're not freaking out right now like some retarded twitter user. I'm not racist. I've just noticed that this a reoccurring theme whenever I see a hot girl, she exclussivly fucks black guys. I'm not going to get into the fucking details of it all but I've seen these guys fucking these girls and they don't have monster 14" dongs or are in the best shape.

It makes me feel undesired or unwanted.

I understand that it could be worse, but I don't know what the fuck has gotten into me. Am I right to feel this way? I needed to get this off my chest, no matter how dumb this sounds.