I’ll try to keep it brief. Got a fwb, we’ve blurred a lot of lines and she has admitted feelings for me which I have not verbally reciprocated in any way. I’ll be honest and I treat her way better than my second fwb, I’ve grown some attachment to her, and I show that I do care about her through actions. I don’t however have any “love” towards her. She has more red flags than a commie parade and she’s the complete opposite of ltr material.

Here’s where my “problem starts” her ex, who she’s clearly not over (did I mention red flags) invited to take her on vacation which she accepted. Thinking it over I realized that I’m her alpha fucks.

I can call her at 3 am on a weekday and happily she’ll drive her ass over to my house to drain my balls when she knows she has work at 7am. She’s submissive and completely subservient to me, She’ll do anything I ask in bed, and she’s always available to me. FFS this girl has literally giddily licked my nut off the floor. I should be on cloud 9 right? And for the most part I am.

But it’s started to bug me that she’s with someone else for a handful of days. I know I got to right to feel this way, we’re not exclusive in any way. And being 100% honest in the past her beta bux ex has essentially bribed her with all expenses paid trips (which is the only way she’ll see him) on his dime to spend time with him initially it didn’t bother me at all. 100% no bs, at the beginning it didn’t bother me. But now out of the blue it bugs the shit out of me and I’ve not been able to rationalize the feeling away.

This girl has snuck away to face time me during the day and sexted me at night several times when she’s been away. It’s abundantly clear that she wishes I was me om vacation with her not mr walking atm. And even knowing this I’m still annoyed.

Clearly I’m not going to start acting jealous or petty. I’m too far into my journey to be that dumb. And clearly I’m not going to bring any of this up to her either because that would shatter my frame and paint me as a jealous and needy bitch.

Someone please help me process and get rid of these retarded annoying pointless feeling so I don’t ruin the great thing I got going on…..