I first took TRP a decade ago at 22 years old when I was in a relationship with a divorced BPD woman 7 years my senior. I was completely overmatched most of the time, but through the application of red pill philosophy I was able to get the upper hand some of the time, but those kinds of women cannot be tamed and it was a very toxic relationship. I haven't spoken to her in 7 years.

Those principles stuck with me and from 2018-2019 as I was approaching 30, TRP principles stuck with me and I escaped the anger and depression phases. I was finally successful in life and had reached acceptance, and was hooking up for 2 years. My game had reached an apex by 30.

Last year, I ran into some major health problems. Like temporary disability type deal requiring multiple surgeries in short order. Being bed bound, I gravitated towards the internet to pass the time. I sought out women to talk to. Because I couldn't go on dates, I didn't bother sexualizing, and found I had friend zoned myself with several women. A few of them were married and it was a totally pointless waste of time to talk to them.

There was about 5 or 6 of these women. And one of them I fell for. 30 years old, HB8, fell into habits I thought I put away a decade ago. Texting daily, emotional tampon, the whole 9 yards. I finally said lets go on a date...friendzoned hard. It was about 2 weeks ago. It hit hard. I now realize what a weak, pathetic man I've become.

This week I began to trim the fat. I blocked 4 of the 5 women (one already reached out over email to "apologize if she said anything that offended me" and then immediately diverted back to talking about her own problems). The only one that is not blocked is the friend zone girl. Why? Because she's squirming and panicking now. Wondering why her attention ATM is out of money. Trying to put me back in that box that she's so comfortable with. And I'm enjoying it. Watching her squirm and listening to Rollo predict her behavior word for word is allowing me to reaffirm that I have made the right decision by taking TRP a second time. And crazy, insecure women like this respond positively to negative attention. She reminds me of my ex. There's an off chance she'll ask to come over and let me fuck the shit out of her, so I'm not ready to block yet.

TLDR: Took the red pill a decade ago after a toxic 4 year LTR. Reached a solid degree of game 2 years ago. Got very sick and weak last year and turned to the internet out of boredom. Ended up with a bunch of female "friends" in my phone clogging up my day and stealing my attention. Just ghosted them.