I'm one month into college, and before this I was a kissless virgin. I met this girl at a party (she approached me bc I still don't have confidence to approach) and we ended up making out, I slept in her bed because mine is too high up for her, and we fucked about a week later--it took her some time to want to get used to me.
At this point, she was talking about a relationship, but I was hesitant because I saw some red flags (talked about her ex a lot, body count of 3 at 18 years old, and not great relationship with her ex-military dad, who's a badass btw). I was over at her room one night and she told me to leave because she likes sleeping by herself (small beds, she doesn't sleep well when I'm over) but I thought she didn't really mean it and stayed for 20 minutes while she pressured me to go. I ended up leaving, but she was pissed off the next morning and I tell her "my bad." She tells me she isn't ready for a relationship and "let's just be friends." I'm happy about that actually, because I didn't want to get into a relationship, but I know I could've kept this plate and fucked more than once. She said I was an asshole frequently, and she still wanted me over until that last straw, but I'm not sure if I took TRP and overcompensated. Anything you think I could've done differently?
Also, when we were fucking, I really wasn't super hard, which I think is because I used to watch porn a lot, like once a day. I did nofap for 4 months, relapsed until college, and have not seen porn the past month. I'm wondering if any of you have a similar experience and have seen improvement. I've also noticed the past few years I haven't really had a major crush on any woman, the same way I would used to, like when I was 14. I'm not sure if this is natural as I'm maturing, or if it's a side affect of the porn usage.
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chickengod 2y ago
Oh yeah, certainly was a slut. I was planning on trying to keep her as long as possible to get more experience with sex -- before she would inevitably cut it off due to me not committing.
Although, I know almost for sure that she didn't want to fuck that night. It was around 1:30am, the last bus to my dorm was 2am, and she really had made it a point the previous few nights she wanted to sleep by herself. Maybe I'm reading it wrong, but I don't think so
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chickengod 2y ago
Because I refused to leave for a while. She also told all her friends about what an asshole I was after that incident
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YourOwnDisaster 2y ago
-Neil DeGrasse Tyson
redhawkes 2 2y ago
Good, now GFTOW.
Check your autism also. She was probably expecting another dick that night and you were cockblocking. Or just ab shit test. Learn to calibrate. With women it’s not about content, it’s about context.
You’re in college, plow and don’t get oneitis for sluts.