32M, was fortunate to be good looking, girls always fell for me with little to no effort. Am new here so was wondering what you guys think about situations where sometimes pushing them ladies a bit too much. Let's put a context to that:

I know when girls like me, or at least most of them, even if there is no IOI per se, just from the way they look at me; so I've always took advantage of that, meaning that several times when I encountered strong LMR from these women, I actually became somehow violent and forcing them to have sex.

How did I do that? By forcing them into physical submission mainly by immobilizing them, tearing down their clothes (pants, panties, blouses so on so forth - had so many favourite clothes that I had to give away to them because they couldn't wear what they initially had on) and than forcefully penetrating them which they start enjoying shortly after I did (usually it took me 1-2 minutes of forced penetration, after which they became submissive and started enjoying and reciprocating).

My last similar experience (2 years ago) ended differently, meaning that the lady in question, 26F HB8 at that time, fell for me, got disappointed cause I was spinning other plates and have been honest about it after a while (I kindof liked her as well, so I wanted to be sure that I keep her for a while, see where it goes), we ended things in tears from her side and the same night she goes to one of my buddies I was hanging with at that time and fucks him after this dude gets her drunk and all emotional by playing the guitar.

She called me after a couple of weeks, telling me what happened and that she can't live with herself for what she has done (having sex with some other guy just to forget me and that this is not her at all and how could she possibly have done that so on so forth) I calmed her down telling her all will be good and stop thinking about herself like that as she was a smart woman, studying PHD in engineering, we didn't speak after that.

We met after 1 year, I insisted as I've seen we're in the same city at that time, she agreed after I've been really pushy, we stood in my car in front of her airbnb (she didn't wanna go anywhere) and she told me that she gave up men after everything that happened between us and now she's in a relationship with a woman which is similar to me but more mature. I've noticed recently that they got married and I was baffled because I knew her since long time...and she was never a lesbian, I mean she said that she had one experience of kissing one female friend of hers in college and she didn't like it that much.

I guess I had 2 questions in the end, one regarding "rape" and the other of affecting other people lives.

P.S: never been accused of rape, and all women which I forced into sexual submission came back for more.