There are several questions that I have as part of this.

  1. I’ve been speaking my mind a lot more than in the past, when I would just be submissive and shy away. For example, I’ve been telling my parents off for all the stuff they’ve done to me over the years. They hate it, but it’s like I don’t care anymore and I will confront them every chance I get. Another example: After overhearing a coworker telling my manager she got her car broken into, I told her I overheard it and offered her some comforting and polite words, and we vibed for 5 minutes (after I asked her if she was going to a company picnic on Tuesday). My thoughts were screaming at me to just avoid the topic altogether, but it’s like I’m becoming a different beast. Another example: I saw my coworker eating (but she didn’t know I saw her); and I said right after that directly to her, “It smells like McDonald’s fries in here; I love that smell!” Normally, I wouldn’t say anything to that.

  2. I was thinking about how I’d confront my former peers and classmates for all the shit they’ve done to me over the years, and how I would get back at them. I’m thinking of telling one of my best friends not to associate with me anymore until he pays me back for an NBA ticket he gave to his friend when I told him I couldn’t come to the game, without ever paying me back (it’s been almost 3 years now). I’m thinking of telling off my university classmates for using me for homework answers and ignoring me otherwise, especially online and when I tried to DM them to hang out. I’m thinking of adding my former oneitises out of the blue on social media and asking them for booty calls.

I don’t know why this is happening to me. I’ve been lifting heavy and killing it at my job for the past 5 weeks, my emergency fund is almost fully stocked up (for my needs), and I haven’t fapped in 4 days. I’ve also recently met my company’s entire executive team.

What do I do about it? And how do I go about confronting all the social stuff (because I think I would feel best if I did that)?