It's been quite some time since I last used pmo ( porn,masturbation,orgasm), I have improved in certain aspects the exams I gave were good, I am objectively good looking now (above average), I lift somehow I started going out more and began to enjoy it,It wouldn't be wrong if I said I reinvented myself,I started feeling confident in my own body. I obtained some chest mass and shoulder mass too. I even held my own frame against my family. The only factor that is not in my control are the women. I somehow feel entitled as if all the progress I made was not for me. I resent it when they ghost me (irl and online) and go for someone else. After every cold approach I felt good and bad. My social circle is filled with guys who are worse than me. I keep on expanding to different social circles but maybe because of the conservativeness (I'm not from the west) I haven't found a decent one with women maybe I should really go to a cooking or yoga class ( is it desperate?). I know it feel kn my heart If I remain on social media trying to land women from there it'll wreck my mental peace. I just feel tired at this point. Sometimes I look at a woman and I wonder all the cute act the silly act she puts on up. Uglier people,Fatter people,Broke people have it better than me while I have lost the grit to do cold approaches and social circles are deadwater.