I’m seriously considering:

• move out to a rural/less crowded place for a few weeks.
• start physical exercise/ working out.
• leave my parents be, at their own risk & mercy. Feels like wanting to give up.

Update:

• left the city 5 days ago to go to a rural community living. My sleep has been better the moment I left (actually from the moment it was decided that i'm leaving in 2 hours). While this place is ok, I feel it's not a permanent place yet.
• decided to leave all work behind for 1 week. not working at all (almost). will think about this later.
• doing long walks since 3 days, bit of runs. Starting gym today with 5x5.
• lashed out at my elder sister on thursday (who was kind of a bum in the entire family emotions equation) which seems to have the effect of making the stress go away. it was like everything was trapped within. thank you @musicgoon78
• ignoring my dad and only speaking to mom on health basis.
• wife couldn't travel along but she's good now. gives me some lone time.

Not feeling happier yet but more relieved.

Also, restarted smoking cigarettes on Tuesday (quit in 2019) -- it seemed to have a calming effect too. Stopped it again yesterday after i finished all 15 of them that i first purchased. Was planning to buy some today, but resisted. I can feel withdrawal in terms of craving to eating more sugar.

How do you all handle cravings (sugar/cigarette/cannabis)? I've seen that when I leave one, I end up feeling terrible until I latch onto another one.. sometimes its junk food, sometimes its cannabis..

I need to feel happy... how?

I'm going to be honest as a late 40's guy. I don't believe in the stoicism theory. Feelings are like taking a shit, you gotta let them out or you're gonna get real sick. Stoicism to me is one big fat untenable cope.

You are human. It's like saying "just don't feel pain" you're not trained in this sort of thing and you can't just snap your fingers and become hardened.

Now let me tell you what works better than drugs, or escapism, or even therapy: go lift heavy at the gym. Wear yourself out and you'll feel immediate results to your mindset. As you get physically stronger, your emotions will follow suit.

Set aside time to fully feel your emotions so that you can move on. Let them out. Don't fight them. Anger and frustration turned inward leads to depression.

Take care of yourself first. You don't need to light yourself on fire to keep others warm. If you aren't overflowing with good vibes, you don't have much to give. Remember that.

My mom is v sick and she is also v old school so has lot of inertia for medicines etc which requires me having to convince her 5x more.

That is extremely stressful

I run a startup since 3 years, it hasn’t been doing v well. Considering shutting it down.

Seriously consider shutting it down. The worst startups aren't the failures, they're the ones that limp along for too long, going nowhere and soaking up your time. If it fails you can go on to one that succeeds.

Be honest about its future. Ignore the past.

My wife got v sick last two weeks because we had to go through abortion (unplanned)

urgh that sucks

I have gained about 18kgs in last 3 years, that isn’t helping either

You ABSOULUTELY have to fix this shit. This is putting a strain on your joints and a strain on your marriage, and this is 100% in your control.

my dad seems to be too egoistic when interacting with me, intentionally doing the opposite & triggering me

Ignore him more

I’ve been landlocked in a city with over 20 million people, pollution and no breathing space. I’m frustrated.

Move?

“You have power over your mind — not outside events. Realize this and you will find strength.” - Some Stoic Guy

Stoicism is a great idea in such times. What I like to do when things aren't going straight is to treasure those "me" times. Even half an hour by myself can be treasured and time dilation can be experienced if you're taking that time to simmer down, unwind, pray, meditate and sort things out yourself.And another thing I like to do is put it all in perspective:

• What exactly can I do myself to react to this in a constructive way? Despair, anger and depression don't work, instead focus on how to calm down, minimize the damages that can be minimized, control your own emotions, word and reactions and you will be doing your part, let the rest of the things that are out of your control take its course, and what is really enlightening about this is how much freedom it gives you to find out how much you can really do, and how much is out of your control, whether in your mind you still think you could've done something.

I'd like to give you a simple example of a thought process, because the theory just sounds too easy sometimes:

• Wife got sick because of the abortion: "I need to do the emotional leading, wait til she is healed up and reassure her that we are going to be fine and we are definitely going to try again and have a beautiful, healthy baby". In this case you gave a choice to take the hit and be destroyed by the pain or take the opportunity to help you both heal as a couple during terrible times.

-Dad is being a bitch to me intentionally: "I'm not just not gonna let his bs affect me, i'm gonna let him know: "Hey dad, i know you're trying to piss me off but I'm not gonna listen to you, do what you want old man", and just like with women, don't act butthurt, don't feel butthurt and don't show your hurt butt.

It's just to get you an idea because I'd like my advice to be more than just " take it easy, this too shall pass", something more micro than macro.