I'm 30M virgin never had any sort of romantic or physical experience I've never even had my 1st kiss putting how pathetic and depressing that is behind lol I've been thinking i should just visit a escort to get the experience it's not the way i wanted it to be but here i am , there's alot of reasons i have just had 0 luck with women I'm ugly guy was overweight although lost some weight still nowhere near desirable, also the idea of being nice and all that BS just doesn't mean anything also a big part is I'm nervous around people but not bad I've been able to make friends and talk to strangers but when its trying to be something more or flirting and with women i just get extremely self conscious and anxious. Being honest a big part is being so self conscious/anxious a woman would even want to be with me causes me alot of anxiety and doubt plus the idea of making the move to be physical touching a woman and worrying I'm being too much

But with all that i still think my best course of action (realistically) is to go through with paying for a experience but my main concerns are safety in every sense i worry about being hurt/robbed although i can defend its a worry , the actual anxiety of doing it being i have no idea what I'm doing sure I've watched porn so i understand the absolute basics and I've watched/read stuff about sex but its obviously not anywhere bear the same thing , i also worry about actually being physical and actually touching a woman makes me kind of nervous especially a woman who doesn't want me to touch her its just a business transaction at the end of the day .

Any advice on the anxiety and how to actually go through with it big worry is ill be so anxious i wont be able to go through with it or just relax enough

although it brings alot of anxiety for me i guess i was wondering for anybody who's ever used escorts what's the best way to approach it ?

sorry if this is something discussed alot