You should explain the type of pornography it was. And yes most women would stay away.

This feels like a troll post.

Move to a place where the age of consent is like 12

Or is that too old for you

say nothing to anyone ... If you have passed that part of your life ,, just move on and if necessary move away to somewhere you aren't known and 'start again' ..... many people have and so can you

You sound like you've just got out not long ago ,, I know what it's like and it's not easy to get back into living outside again ... it's not easy and those who 'know' will sympathize with you .... I do ,, so just keeping your head above water IS a great start and something to be proud of for starters!

Then while getting comfortable back in society. ,, learn about RedPill thinking and improve yourself in as many ways as you can! The only 'failure is the failure to try mate!!

The guys who get the d are confident about themselves aka alphas

you need to improve yourself first to the point you're no longer doubting your own value of yourself

Once you sex a woman well ,, If you want you can tell her then ,, good sex changes the way a woman will think about you and your behavior in general ,, and if they want 'more great sex with you' you'd be surprised how easily they'll dismiss the 'bad' things you've done ... those hampsters usually don't mind a quick spin for good sex!

That is the kind of dark secret that should probably not be revealed till late into a relationship, and of course it's going to be very important to have actually changed and reformed.

Unless you're being screwed by sex offender laws such that this is public knowledge?

Right now though it sounds like the biggest issue is feeling intense shame and "below zero" . A relationship isn't going to help with that, it's going to scratch those issues up even more.

You're not doomed to be a monk, but it might be a good idea to focus on other things right now.

most importantly, try to do things that make you feel higher than a zero. Find a cause you care about and work for that cause for a while. More than towards anyone else, you need to prove to yourself that you're not a bad person. And the only way you can do that is by spending effort energy and time, every day, in being a good person.

You've been hit hard, you're closer to the bottom, but that means you can look around, find other people who are low, and help them.

You can leave this behind you and become an incredible human being. Just realize that no, it will never be the same as it could have been. There will be people who won't be able to look past it, not matter how much you change. Life sucks like that. but you can bear the scars and make it out alive and stronger.

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You also need to make sure you have safeguards in place against repeating. I know you went through schooling but it might not be enough. And having an actively maintained prevention plan and a lot of self awareness is going to be the main weapon in your arsenal to convince someone you're still a safe bet and that you've really reformed.

You're fucked, faggot.

Become a Tibetan buddhist monk pls. The church has enough perverts.

What is a “child” in this case? After all, younger women who are below 18 are considered “children” by some puritans.

I'm pretty sure I had a few pictures of 14-16 year old female friends...when I was 15 myself...

I guess it depends...

Either way, a first date doesn't usually entail a criminal background check.