The dual combination of a capitalist system of values and feminism have ruined true femininity. My girl asked me why traditional female child reering & home work was not valued by society, well because what kind of economic output does a stable family have? Much less than two miserable working and spending constantly on fetishizes goods
I was around your height but always skinny fat. Around 160. Through working out I got up to 170ish but the noob gains were nowhere what some of my friends were in the same time frame. This was with eating healthy and barely any junk or booze. Once I got my t levels to max of my age range i went up to 200lbs with no change in diet or excercise. And this was not a supraphysiological dose.
I don’t know how old you are but you sound like a bitch.
If you’re so unsatisfied in your current relationship that you write about a 10 year old encounter with the zeal of horny teenager you got some splainin to do yourself about why you couldn’t lead you and your woman.