Thanks to TRP I was able to spin 3 plates in my first semester of college. I'm only 18, however, I have noticed that my self worth has been tied to validation I get from women. On tinder, I have amassed hundreds of matches just purely for validation with no intention of messaging them, I get a little ego boost with every single one I get and when they stop coming for a few days I feel like shit about myself.

My self esteem goes down a lot during dry streaks as well. When I was spinning three plates a few months ago I felt like I was on top of the world but because of lockdowns and the semester ending, I haven't been able to see them. I also moved from Canada to Dubai for the next month and getting laid as an 18 year old is going to be tough out here especially with the gender ratio being 4:1 and there being very few people my age. I've gotten laid once in the last 2 months, and I honestly feel so shitty about myself, like I've regressed in life somehow.

How do I get over this? My self worth is often tied to how many women I have chasing me.