Putting this long one out here for no reason in particular. Feel free to point out whatever.

Background:

Came out of LTR early this year and took TRP to heart. Been having regular ONS to the point that i can tell it will get boring quick, so im focusing on turning the interesting girls into plates. Have had mixed results so far but i've learned a lot from it. This is almost exclusively through tinder. I've got a very average profile that i havent gotten around to updating, honestly because i've had decent success without it, though it's by spending way too much time on the app building rapport and obviously also wasting a lot of that time. Suboptimal strategy but its a temporary solution. I will be updating the tinder profile to keep as a backup and hopefully moving into meeting girls in other ways, preferrably through social circles in the future.

Generally i've been able to keep a few uninteresting girls around for a short while but i kinda lose interest in them and drift away while focusing on getting dates with better girls. Making this happen on Tinder with my lackluster profile or through my attempts at cold approach has proven hard, i reckon mostly because of average SMV. I am lifting again and diet is much better so im seeing good progress there.

Yesterdays cold approaching:

Was out shopping and thats one of the times i bother with cold approaches, seeing that there's a lot of hot girls around and many good opportunities to approach without going out my way. I ended up approaching 5 girls, where 2 were working in separate stores i was actually shopping at.

With those two i talked first about products while just mixing in some banter and trying to get it flirty but low investment. Its easy rapport and these two girls, both legit 8s, gave me their number. Once again it was shockingly easy considering their looks and honestly higher SMV. But, i know from both experience and reading FRs that numbers are usually dead on arrival so i dont get my hopes up.

Texted both the same evening. One actually responded, very positively. We have some sexual banter going on already and it could lead to something seeing how invested these texts are, but we'll see.

The other 3 girls didnt turn out as well with 2 having a boyfriend. I usually prod a bit to find out if its actually the case and it seemed so. I dont push for a number after that unless there's very good chemistry. I just kept it flirty and fun and exited the convo. Last girl was young and thought i looked too old im sure and just didnt engage even with an indirect opener and casual talk.

Take-aways:

Im finding that my approach anxiety is almost gone now. I am often thinking about frame and of being my own mental point of origin. I think that, along with recent but limited success with girls, is to thank for it. Cleaning up diet and workout routine definitely also helps my general mentality.

I still sometimes create reasons in my mind for not approaching though, which is a habit im working on eliminating.

Tonights hookup with a plate:

To preface i hooked up with this girl on first date over a week ago. That time she shit tested me relentlessly, which i was thinking is a good sign, but she did it so much i started to really doubt it. I did pass the tests with ease though and held frame which was fun. I escalated in spite of some doubts that in hindsight were silly, and it turned into some wild sex throughout the evening.

We texted a bit the following week. I just sent a casual after sex text, and the response was really good. Then later i would text again after a few days of no contact and we set a next date tonight. Her investment on texts was high to the point that my low effort texts shook her up a bit i think. She is probably not used to that and maybe thought id try to marry her already. This girl is really hot and exactly my type so keeping my investment level low on purpose actually felt bad somewhere in the needy BP part of my brain..

Then tonight she came over again, greeted with a kiss and talked for 15 minutes while eating some pizza. I just grabbed her casually and we got to sex pretty quick. I have been reading Sex God Method religiously for a while and have been upping the sex game a lot, though its still not perfect.

And now, one of the things i thought would change was the level of shit tests and attitude i am receiving from this girl. But it just got worse tonight. That is before, after and inbetween the sex romps. She is very submissive and great when having sex, and judging from her intensity she is very into me, but its really confusing.

A couple examples:

1. We had sex for what is for me a long time, like 2 hours with some short breaks and a shower strewn in. When doing that i sporadically get limp which i never worry about because i get back into it. I think i have good stamina. But this chick got really worked up around the midpoint and started confronting me about it as we went for a shower. I just took this as a shit test but it came up a couple times during this time. Didnt let it phase me but i wonder if her expectations are super high or she was just trying to fuck with my head or maybe she just got insecure. Tbf she's gotten pretty wrecked both dates so she cant really go any longer lol.
2. She shakes her head at how aloof i am, comments on how comfortable i am with silence in a conversation and she says its awkward and that she doesnt understand me. Legit seems uninterested while saying this kinda stuff. Then the sex keeps being wild and she is very passionate.

Take-aways:

First thing in my mind is to look at what girls do and not what they say. At the same time im thinking that if some girls are like this with their rampant shit testing and attitude i might just next them even if they are hot and great in bed. Not sure how to actually deal with that, except maybe just telling her that i wont tolerate it and she needs to stfu more if im gonna spend time with her.

This level of shit testing is making me a worse conversationalist/less interesting socially, which is only a problem IF women actually care much about that, which i am not sure about. I do think about the fact that i might not be interesting enough for her outside sex to make her want to be upgraded. I know thats a stupid self-limiting belief, but a goal of mine is to be attractive in all areas.

An explanation could perhaps be that she is surprised that a guy who is not really high SMV holds frame and doesnt care what she says, so she decides to keep up the intensity for longer.

At the end of the night i wasnt at all sure if i was in good or bad standing with her even for future hookups. I think that says something about how off this dynamic seems to me. I dont understand it yet but at the same time i wont spend more time thinking about it unless i actually get something out of it. Maybe she'll be a plate, maybe i'll be hers, or maybe i wont see her again.

Now im just turning my eyes to the upcoming dates with other girls later this week.