I’m still working on my English, hope you guys don’t mind.

When I came to TRP the first time (2 years ago) I was the type of guy who believed the only type of alpha males was a 6’3 ripped dude with tattoos all over and a tough attitude, spitting bad words all over the place and driving a tuned noisy challenger.... I was very wrong.

I used to work on San Diego as a bass boy for 6 months before going back to college in Mexico, and I met this 20 year old Mexican kid called Alonso got hired to be the food expo a week after me (I’m 26 year old btw). He was the type of kid who’s got a his first job that you all know, very outgoing attitude, kind and eager to help with everything, really likeable guy, we were the 2 newbies at the restaurant so we started to get along better then with the rest.

About Alonso he was 5’4or 5’5, no gym body at all, he liked to drink beer and eat crap food, he had the baby face still, no facial hair whatsoever so you get it, he was just an average kid, I knew for fact I was better looking than him, I mean I’m 6’1 somewhat toned after 5 years in the gym, I’ve got compliments on my eyes, smile and nose, so yeah I was better looking than him that’s for sure.

Anyways days passed and Alonso and I became closer. He would get more comfortable around me and would start talking about the waitresses and the hostess, he would refer to them as “perras” Spanish word for sluts when we were chatting . We all know waitresses and food runners tend to be hot girls, well... He liked to tease/joke them hard and treat them like they were some kind of stupid 10 year old girls, tell them what to do and always laughing at their faces, Alonso was having fun with those chicks, and yeah they were giggling and would say something like “ ohh Alonso fuck you” while walking away smiling like idiots. The guy had balls, sometimes I really thought he would get in trouble for some shit he would say to them, that never happened, Still I thought they’re were just playing along with him, he wasn’t their type so yeah good luck Alonso with that.

Christmas times came and we did a big posada at the restaurant. I thought I was my chance to fuck any of my coworkers, specially Nicole, a nice 5’7 red head, freckles, nice tits ,a perfect ass not to mention that back tattoo she had... a dream for a Mexican guy like me. We had fun and drank till 12, so we decided to move to the manager’s place because he had a big yard we could all fit on. We arrived and kept drinking, Alonso was having fun as always, girls were laughing with him, letting him making fun of them and laughing at nonsense histories, I was getting annoyed of how cocky he was while being drunk but still just ignored that and kept drinking. I was talking to Nicole with other 3 coworkers for a good half hour, she seemed kinda tipsy but still conscious enough. I couldn’t get the balls to make a move plus I thought I would be bad idea take advantage of the situation since she was little drunk so I just kept it casual. By 3 am we were all wasted, there was nobody left at the party so I decided it was time to go home, I went inside the house to use the bathroom and could hear some loud moaning coming from a room next to me, Yeah I recognized Alonso’s voice growling, I couldn’t believe it, Alonso the asshole cocky guy was banging some chick while I was completely wasted and still horny but with nothing in my hands, fuck it I went home.

So the next day it was Christmas Day, me and my roommates are chilling at the apartment, drinking and eating food, I called Alonso and couple other coworkers to join us, I was curious to know who he fucked yesterday. After a while they get to my house m, I can see Alonso pretty hangover from last night, I just asked him who he fucked and yea he says like it was not big at al “ I fucked Nicole” puts his phone out and shows me the pics of her naked while he is fucking her from behind, I was tripping, he fucked what I was si thirsty to have and he knew it, he wouldn’t even hesitate to say “ I don’t know how you didn’t fucked her, she’s a whore” While shaking his head.. and also admitted he fingered this other waitress called cielo who had a bf.

So yeah Alonso the cocky/annoying 20 year old kid had all the pussy I wanted that night. I lost all hope and that’s when I left this Sub. I realized how wrong I was thinking I was better than him, just because I was better looking. Well no he was an alpha, he had something I didn’t, he had balls and he knew how to have a good time, he didn’t put women on a pedestal, he perceive them as toys to play with, telling them what to do. He was in charge and he enjoyed being it.

I moved back to Mexico 3 weeks after, I don’t talk to him anymore, he still texts me asking how I am but I don’t respond to him. I’m resentful to be honest. I feel jealous for not being like him, but also know what I’ve been doing wrong. I was a complete pussy.

Edit: People say you need to leave your ego behind. What you hate is what you desire the most. I always hated men who were getting pussy, overconfident, bold,cocky attitude. And yeah I want to be like that deep inside, is the EGO who is holding you down.