This was originally going to be a reply to a post about porn that was on here today, but it was really long so I figured I'd make my own post about it.

First off, thank you for making this post. This issue is not discussed nearly enough on this subreddit, let alone in society. I used to jerk it 3 or 4 times a day, for at least an hour in each session. Throughout the years I have unknowingly numbed my emotions and energy, all because I just needed to see Jynx Maze suck a dick.

I would stay up late, in search of the perfect video or maybe, just maybe, that one girl will ask to have sex with me. I would get out of bed late, all because I absolutely needed to see that one video of Riley Reid. It would make me late to work, all because that rabbit hole of porn is just so expansive. It would distract me from all the problems I had, the emotions I did not want to process, and just offer me an escape from reality. It offered me a syringe of good ol' dopamine, so I can forget all the trauma I have experienced in my life. It inhibited my sexual energy and confidence in my sexual abilities. Porn sells you a lie of what sex is, it ruins your perceptions and expectations about sex. This is extremely detrimental for people who begin to view porn at a young age, especially men.

Society likes to say "give into your urges, it's not a bad feeling". The natural urge to mate (getting a chub) is one of the most primal desires we have as humans. We want to MATE, not watch porn. When you jerk it, your body thinks it's mating. But, your conscience knows you're not mating. You're blowing your wad to watching people mate. Pretty cuckish, right?

I've only acknowledged this issue for about a year and a half. I used to see a therapist (shit hit the fan in my personal life, thank goodness for insurance) who I mentioned the issue to. He suggested I use a site blocker, but I told him nah I can get it under control.

I knew I had to stop and change something when I was paying money for OnlySimps, custom content, and premium snapchats. I didn't want to be one of those old guys at adult video stores. I didn't want to chase this unrealistic perception of sex. I didn't want to become a simp anymore. I didn't want my future self to be fucked over in relationships and game. I didn't want to chase that dopamine high anymore. I knew once my money was going towards it, I had an actual problem.

It's taken me a year and half to block the sites on my phone and laptop. Willpower is sometimes not enough, you must change the environment and circumstances around you if you truly want to see improvement. I blocked porn on my phone a couple of months ago. Hell, I even had my brother set up a password so I couldn't bypass the blocker. I even ran a script on my computer to get rid of incognito mode so I couldn't use that to bypass the blocker. I went on to unfollow fitness chicks, thirst traps, attention whores on social media, and deleted my dating apps to get rid of any possible "triggers" for a porn binge or relapse. (Yes, I am using addiction terminology. This must be treated as an addiction.)

I have been actively practicing Semen Retention and NoFap ever since quarantine started, as well as Red Pill. I feel like a whole new person. I've had an issue with porn and chronic fapping ever since I was young, and as a result my brain doesn't know what the baseline for dopamine is. I feel emotional, reactive, and have a great sense of gusto in my daily activities from not busting or using porn. It is hard to regulate, but I am doing self-care routines to ensure that I have control over this great sense of energy I have bestowed upon myself.

Today marks day 8 of not jerking it and using porn. This is the longest period of time I have ever gone without porn or fapping ever since I discovered it. Granted, I have relapsed in the past couple months, but I still saw improvement from not using porn as much. To be honest, I've even considered getting a pocket pussy. The Death Grip is real. If you're going to self-pleasure, do it safely: without porn and not using your hand. If women can have magic bullets, men can have a pocket pussy.

Now, I have bitches lined up for me after quarantine. I completely cleaned up my room, I am realizing what is important to me in my life, what my values and principles are, and I'm currently being mentored by a friend about the stock market. Instead of using porn, I'm doing yoga, reading, writing, talking to my friends, working on my career, and just focusing on myself more with Red Pill being the catalyst. I feel more confident and energized than I ever have before in my life. The Fabio inside of me was always there, he was just hunkered down by porn. Porn is all pleasure, no pain. Or at least, that's what the guys at PornHub and Brazzers want you to think.

The great Alan Watts once said : "You get to the hell world as a result of not knowing what you want. As a result, of thoughtless pursuit of pleasure, which ends you eventually in the pursuit of pain. So when you’re in the hell world that’s where you want to be.”

If anyone wants to talk about their issues with porn, please reach out. This is something I am very open about and offer a lot of guidance. I can offer resources and give you a rundown of what my journey has been.

Keep on Red Pillin.