I've been lurking for months here, reading theory, sidebar, comments - basically everything. I found TRP after a period where I wanted to die so badly - my life was boring as shit, one summer I got rejected by the 7 girls I wanted for girlfriends; it was a shitty situation, and I was only 14. So, after a lot of reading, a while ago I actually started my self-improvement adventure.

I have been doing bodyweight fitness for years, after changing schools I got awesome friends and much bigger social circle than I thought I could ever have years ago, I'm the best in class when it comes to grades. All of this gave me happiness and confidence, but one thing I wasn't doing was gaming girls. That was scary as shit for me, but you can't better yourself without facing your fears, no matter their size. 2 months ago I saw a blonde girl, my age(16), in the bus on the way to and from school. I got AA and didn't approach. But I noticed that she's there nearly every day, and at some point I just had to approach.

My first ever cold approach was done in a full bus at 7am, and in the 15mins I had, I gave it my best. Frame, game, everything clicked and after getting off the bus, with her showing big interest, amazing feelings came at me, making my whole day 10 times better than it would've been otherwise. And sadly, this is where the success ends. Everything after it is a painful lesson, one that no theory could prepare me for.

The next few days we got very physical. Touching each other, great teasing on both sides, even on several occassions fighting in the snow. I could have gotten her in the first few days, but I didn't escalate to a kiss soon enough, and that was the biggest mistake in the whole story. Because slowly but steadily, her shit-tests got too heavy for my frame(it broke on many occassions), she got to know too much personal info about me, and in the end, the IoIs I needed to man up and escalate properly disappeared. The awesome moments with her were changed for time&energy-wasting ones. I briefly caught oneitis and managed to stop it, and never became 100% beta/orbiter, yet I haven't been happy at all with her recently. Constant manipulation, lies and insults may not phase the more experienced here, but for me they were a hard hit. At one point I tried to next her, but 2 days of ignoring led to today, when things went out of hand. I knew something was fishy when she was so excited and pushy to "go on an adventure for the whole day". Later I translated that as "come with me to the other side of the city where I've got some work and be my company". This meant 4+ hours of more bullshit, which could've went for many more productive things. Anyway, she was planning to waste at least 7, but I just couldn't handle it anymore, so when she hit me up with another shot of "playful jokes and insults", I just said her bye and went home. 5mins after leaving I got "I can't believe you left me like that; I'm not talking to you anymore" and blocked in Messenger, which I take as she nexting herself.

Even though that whole clusterfuck happened in the period of a month, I was able to learn a lot from it. Many TRP truths were confirmed with the girl's actions or words, among the tests there were genuine tips on what I can work on to become better, and the best thing I got - experience. I think I have a solid amount of girls to game, but I tried my best with the hardest option I could think of - not because of ego, but because I felt the chances to fail are very high one way or another for an inexperienced little shit new to the game like me, so if I was going to lose, it had to be a memorable and useful defeat. Couple of days ago 2 posts came up here about bi-polar girls, and after reading them, I realised that my luck has been amazing - not only have I tried with an attractive, aggressive bitch that goes out every night(the hardest shit-tests were about my social life. I couldn't beat her at that) and can't keep her mouth shut, but she might also be mentally ill. Definitely something my old me would've wanted for a unicorn girlfriend, but not anymore.

Overall, I want to finish with a big thank you to this whole community. I don't want to think where I would've been without the help provided here for free. This whole story will be a small memorable chapter in the book of my life. I will learn what I can from it, and continue to better my life. I'm not in a place to give advice, but I'll still do it for the most important thing I have to say to people like me - don't stop LIVING, and living means DOING. Much of what we read here is theory, to prepare ourselves for actually doing it. It is a stone to step on, something to guide us, but we still have to walk our paths. There are failures, fears and pain, but they don't end the game - they teach us to be better at it. If such a story happened to me without knowing TRP concepts, it would've crushed me. If I only read TRP without trying to apply it, such a story wouldn't have happened.