Background:

I've been lurking in TRP for a quite a while now. Swallowing the red pill wasn't difficult given that I was always a skeptic of the feminist agenda even as a blue-pilled teen. I supposed my awakening came from finding the YouTube MGTOW community a couple years ago ,which did the job of putting logic and shedding more lights into my suspicions. Naturally, I discovered this subreddit. Most of the concept and theory here are practical and resounded strongly within me. My main problem was that I would only mentally apply the lessons learned from over hundreds of posts, good and bad. Like some here are afraid to admit, my main problem was that I thought theory was all I needed in order to improve my relations(success) with the opposite sex. Of course, I was wrong.

Body:

Recently, I've challenged myself and want to achieve three things. I want to rid my life of porn, progress further in the gym, and eradicate my approach anxiety. I've been on pace to fully accomplish the first two as I've incorporated a consistent workout routine that is compatible with my schedule and have abstained from porn for several days(small victories help win the big war). As for the latter, at the gym tonight, I approached two women( an HB5 and an HBinvisible) initially to ask for a pair of 10lbs weights where the HB5, with a smirk,playfully denies me. I laugh at her denial and proceeded to do what I wanted. I took that banter as a sign of attraction(Always Assume Attraction) and said fuck it and made the "cold" approach. Conversation starts off OK but quickly stagnant when I came down with anxiety and simply couldn't get out of my own head and kept stalling so I did not have to ask for her number in order to secure some sort of meetup. Eventually, she and HB moved on to a different exercise in the deeper part of the gym and left me alone to my thoughts. So in hindsight, I could have easily relaxed and approach at a later time, but I didn't because I was in my own head from failing to apply TRP in real life situations. Now most of you are familiar with successful FRs, but in this one, I took the L.

Lesson:

I hate to reiterate what some excellent posts in the last few days have stated, but I feel like I must. You can understand frame, social hierarchy, the benefits of strong eye contact, and etc., but you will still FAIL because you do not exude out that knowledge as a result of remaining that overanxious dude that never matured from lack of experience. During that extended period where I'd learned TRP and not directly apply it to my life, I was still stuck in the anger phase because I refused to take action and eventually learn and grow from it. A woman rejected me? I would internally lash out and rationalize that she's just another hypergamous whore(Whores are not always a bad thing) instead of critically evaluating myself and come to the logical conclusion that my approach was trash. If you are lashing out like a brat, how do you expect to maintain frame when confronted with rejections and setbacks that comes with the process of gaming women?As a result of throwing myself in the fire, I was able to learn something about myself and improve my approach in the future.

TLDR; Red pill theory resonates with long time lurker, but he fails to apply it to his regular life preventing him from growing and leaving the anger phase.

TLDR; Don't simply learn TRP theory and concepts. Apply it. Live it. Become it.