Only consumed porn 3 times or less in the month of April, twice near the start and one last time in the end. I've also been on some small 6-10 day streaks since March. April 29 started my latest streak of 9 days which I just finished.
Observations and theory:
During the month of April I've experienced some flat-lining lasting from a day to almost 5-8 days. In that time life was colorless, dull and nothing felt good besides a post workout chemical high. It was depression, but this could also be linked to environmental factors such as lack of quality sleep or poor supplementation.
I don't suspect oneitis to be a variable because I still felt more emotion during those highs and the lows from those women. My flat-lining just made me feel hollow and vacuous. As I said in another post, I can play brain chemist chemist and sometimes hack a chemical concoction to re-balance my matter and shorten the flat-line.
IDGAF attitude was present and growing in all aspects of life (not just w/ women). Going out dancing alone to dance sober, taking up space, and grooving to music is one example. Women were then saying I was a blast while I didn't game them, again IDGAF attitude. It continues to grow along with my confidence that stems from accepting the other half of TRP reality of power dynamics in relationships coupled with internalizing my own self worth. Will post a field report tomorrow.
Semen retention from Nofap could be influencing my behavior for the better. Fuller balls definitely gives a man incentive to game women. Latest relapse wasn't completely intentional, and reminds me that I must still be careful not to cruise back into old habits. It also gives me a chance to see how I treat myself after a slip up caused by an otherwise, impulsive and careless attitude. I'm a hard critic for those kinds of things. I did relapse, but I'm still enough. This will affect me only if I allow for that.
First of all, a relapse because sex drive is returning during the reboot of my porn addicted brain How did it feel? Good for a second, but overall meh. To be honest, it was kind of underwhelming and not as good as I remember from my days as a porn addict. It used to be so intense with prolonged edging and the porn playing.
What feels better now? Being in the middle of a gym workout, the post gym workout is high, cold therapy. Cold approach, socializing with acquaintance and friends, and having an outward focus on others by facilitating opportunities for those less confident and or social. Lastly, remembering my gratitude for this life. What's fulfilling is embracing this journey of mine (highs and lows included) and loving every bit of it. Amor fati.
My next relapse will be intentional and on May 30th of this month, ending a 22 day streak. I'll be in the middle of my 30 day cold approach challenge. I'll use that last day to document how a self induced orgasm in solitude feels. In other words, how empty getting off alone without a partner, nor a connection will be. (Also to see how to affects my game in the following days.
After that, I intend to never make jerking off a habit and will adopt a Nofap lifestyle. I won't be dulling the sensation of sex anymore, nor will I be susceptible to the dangers this addiction and the mind numbing, sedative advancements of AI-generated porn. You'll see that it's fucking scary if you look into it.
montigokylie 4mo ago
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halibonsa 8mo ago
Besides watching movies, I also play pizza tower when I have time, that's all that gives me more energy.
alvarojackson 10mo ago
Your goals in the future are great. I like them. It's the same goal with me with shell shockers 2. I'm waiting for your next report.
No-Stress-Cat 11mo ago
NoFap...dude you're going to give yourself blue balls. It doesn't give you the incentive to game women, it gives you the incentive to be beta cuck. If you're going to game women, rub one out and then go talk to the chicks. You'll find yourself less likely to be drooling all over yourself the moment a hot blonde looks in your direction.
Vermillion-Rx Admin 11mo ago
Don't know why this got downvoted. I rub one one out almost every night I go out and I still have confidence, still get laid, still get chicks fighting over me. No Fap has more idealistic appeal than practical application
I'd rather think straight gaming a 7+ than be caught glancing at tits more than a few sneak peeks because I'm too horny to focus and losing my mind from physical tension.
No Fap only works if you're getting the results you want. No Fap is just masochism if you're trying to use it as a device to achieve goals you've never previously achieved.
No Fap should be used as a regulatory device if and up and to the point where it actually facilities your goals effectively. Doing it just to do it is pointless imo and is better served for men whose sole problem is massive porn addiction, not men trying to get laid