I want to start by saying I am taking full accountability for how my life is going. I have been consistently working out and am in great physical state. Within the past year, I went from dealing with insomnia and anxiety to being in a motivated mindset. However, it would be great to hear some advice/suggestions.
It was about 2 years ago, both my parents got cancer. I got overwhelmed by my life situation and a girl suggested to be there for me. Simply put, I fell into the full blue pilled experience. The moment I broke my frame, everything became gradually worse. My mental health/self-esteem also became gradually worse. When Covid happened, it became apparent that she was consumed by social media and she would negatively invest in every social issue. This mixed with my anxiety was a nightmare. Things got bad and I was finally able to end things with her.
That was probably the lowest my life has ever felt. I had lost many of my friend groups, people's perception seemed to have changed as my mental health was deteriorated, I was unemployed, was no longer in a relationship and had ill family members. As hopeless as I felt at this point, I couldn't accept it. I committed to getting a gym membership and took online classes to learn new skills. These things saved my life as it effectively distracted me from anxiety attacks. In a work of miracles, I somehow landed a decent job with those learned skills. Got good healthcare, found a good therapist and I can gladly say I no longer deal with insomnia and anxiety attacks anymore.
Overall I feel like I have been on a good road to redemption, but anxiety does still creep in every now and then. Mainly around how I broke frame and ate shit. I would love to hear suggestions/advices on rebuilding on using these experiences to become a better man. How do I not allow this shitty part of my past have any effect on my future?
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whytehorse2021 1y ago
Oh so you went through what I'm going through right now. The key is discipline. For a while I had to keep returning to WAATGM to discipline my mind to always have a red pill lense. Now I can see it everywhere without even trying. Same goes with working out, I have to look at myself in the mirror to remind me to get off my fat ass and go work out.
Once these things become permanently ingrained you don't really have to worry too much about your past. Andrew Tate used to be a blue pill beta nerd.
killingarcade22 1y ago
Discipline has definitely been a key theme for myself lately, as well as consistency.
mattyanon Admin 1y ago
Sounds like you're doing ok....... despite how you feel. How old are you?
Life has its ups and downs...... focus on the future, try to grow, but mostly focus on doing things. Do things better. Keep working at it.
There is no great secret, most of it is just doing it.
killingarcade22 1y ago
Thank you for the reply. I am in my late 20s. Definitely feel like I am making progress and moving forward. I can confidently say I am in a way better place than a year ago.
mattyanon Admin 1y ago
great, you've got lots of time
focus on (and appreciate) the progress you've made. try to spend more time looking at that.
coolsocks00 1 1y ago
Sounds like you're doing well and are headed in the right direction.
You know when you practice something difficult over and over again, until at a certain point that thing is no longer hard or frightening? Your mind works similarly on a macro level. Keep working and improving, have more positive experiences and the good will override the bad.
It's like the higher your batting average is, the more robust you become for when you face setbacks. Improve your batting avg.
killingarcade22 1y ago
Thank you for this reply. "until at a certain point that thing is no longer hard or frightening" I needed to hear this. The thoughts have definitely gotten less frightening. My ex would critique everything I would do at the peak of my anxiety and I believe it left some trauma that made me believe I was a shit person. I have slowly been rebuilding some good social circles again and that has been really helpful in re-strengthening myself as well.