I will start this off with a brief origin story to provide a backdrop to the discussion. This year I got my notch count past 30, it was only sitting at about 10 by the end of 2018. I am in my late 20s and lost my virginity at 24. Late bloomer, good looking, had shitty self esteem and social anxiety as a teenager.
The good news is I quit weed a couple years back and have been having some successes. Of course these come with an equal number of fuckups. Usually shooting myself in the dick or not going for it when shes clearly into me.
The two biggest ways I fuck up:
The most success I've had is when I don't give a fuck which often takes alcohol. I am willing to admit that my inner beta is still a powerful part of my personality but I don't want it to be. I would love to not rely on alcohol so much and make dgaf my natural state.
Should I simply keep at it and spin more plates, continuing to grow from experience? Or, do you have supplimentary ideas that could accelerate my development?