You sound boring.

No your conversations aren't boring. No you actually aren't boring, you're bored with yourself. Dig around the manosphere for an article called "The world doesn't give a fuck about you".

You're not creating. Yeah you work, you lift, and shit. But whens the last time you literally added to the world? Paint a picture? Built a birdhouse? Sketch a drawing? Take a stunning photograph? Write a passage? Baked a cake? Grilled a tasty steak? (not for surplus, pure pleasure)

I'd be pretty down on myself if all I did eas consume from this world. In fact the issue you're stating, I solved by creating.

I'm pretty fucking disappointed at the half assed comments like Imposter Syndrome is a real fucking disease lol.

To be honest OP I understand exactly how you feel because I am experiencing this although you do sound much more successful than me.

My explanation is that you are a fucking perfectionist. Look at all the things you described, all of these affirmation is derived from 3rd party and not yourself because there is some sense of self directed anger at not being better. The reason you feel confident if you are dressed well explains it. I too feel like a completely different person when I dress well but too bad that I consider clothes as meaningless material things in our otherwise ephemeral existence. In fact I feel so much existential crisis when I'm around other people. Like I'd be talking but I'm not there, I'm just giving pre-recorded messages or template emotional expression. I'm not depressed but then again I'm not happy either.

What kind of makes me feel better lately is when I realize that what other people think of me is irrelevant. They are gonna give you shit no matter what you do. Sort of like Youtube comments and how if someone doesn't like the song you chose they tell you to go kill yourself. Do I really want to live my life pleasing these type of people? Which leads to my next conclusion, I don't have to be fucking perfect. I can fuck up. It's totally nobody's business to tell me what I should be or shouldn't be. Chances are those people passing judgements or even complimenting you have their own issues or jealousy. Ego is expensive. I spend so many years worrying about that and slowly I'm getting out of this bubble I created for myself. This perfect person who does everything right. I do fear that I might be turning into a total fucking douche sometimes but this is another part that I need to work on another day. The more I really let go of my Mr. Perfect alter ego, the more I realize that at the core I'm actually a super lazy piece of shit who can never hold down a fucking job because I am interested in only money. Like no other fucking desire to change the world (as I lied to myself) or prestige (parents need something to brag to their extended families about). Just making money the way I know best. I never had to try hard because people give you the free pass when they label you as 'smart' or make a very good first impression when in reality, I should've been being who I really am and working on that instead of some fake ass person.

I used to rely on substance to feel confident and drown out the 'empty feeling' but lately I realize that it is entirely possible that those feelings were always with me but never allowed myself to express it. Not when Mr. Perfect is constantly judging your every fucking move. No, you know what, fuck you Mr. Perfect, I live to please myself now. I can be sober and still have a fucking blast and feel good about myself and others.

By no means have I completed this journey, I'm just annoyed how long I spent my early years disillusioned at maintaining this idea of a perfect person with unrealistic expectations, part of which I believe were conditioned to me since I was a kid. Every little fucking thing from how I eat to how I laugh is scrutinized and berated by my parents. Now I realize it's just them projecting their own flaws on to me but it's also my overachieving and drive to succeed that made me buy into the whole thing.

Man I hope this helps, if you want to chat, just send me a message.

Well, there's such a thing as Impostor Syndrome, where more competent people tend to view themselves as less capable simply because they have greater awareness and sensitivity to the subject. Could it be that?

You live inside your head. My guess is that you're a good dude, it's that shitty little hamster trying to hold you back. You're your own worst enemy. Gain control over your thoughts. Get into meditating. I've been pleased with the results. Start short (5-10 minutes) focusing on your breath and work up to 20-30 mins.

Its about self acceptance. I am who I am and I am congruent with my actions and words. I am confident in my judgement and my mental fortitude.

You just live and do not feel anything, right? I guess I know what you're talking about, I do not have the knowledge to fix it though, just feel the same shit as you do. Kind of emptiness. Kind od unworthiness (if this is the right word)

I saw a reddit post a while back that talked about a disorder that causes you to feel that way regardless of how legit you may be. You should Google around, might be something easily treatable, and you can get back on your alpha way