Hi everyone.

A week ago, I got the most unimaginable news. This past week has been an absolute nightmare. This is the person I’ve loved for almost a decade; my entire 20’s. I feel like he shaped me into the person I am today. And he was way too young. 46.

I’m not sure what I’m looking for here. Support, maybe. If anyone has any similar experiences, that might help. I’m open to any and all advice, etc.

As far as the future, today I’m realizing I need to build myself and grow into the person he would want me to become. The person I know I can become. Work on being alone. Work on the anxious attachment style I have, and my codependent nature. Better myself in all ways: mental, physical, spiritual, emotional.

Thank you for listening. I only have brief moments of clarity. I feel like I’ll never have anyone that will ever love me the way he did.